b*itch month

april was my b*tch month.i hated it.i was betrayed and my trust was put to the test.i really thought april was one of the best months but it was my waterloo.i've been so down lately and i need to feel well sooner.everything just went by slowly and i felt like im this tiny branch swinging to whichever side the wind blows.i felt horrible.devastated.everyone thought i'm happy but i'm broken into pieces.it has affected my job and my reaction to certain life-challenging events has turned blaaaah.ok,i get it.i've gone with the flow but it doesn't sound right.they said "only dead fishes go with the flow".i really hope and pray that this month would be a-MAY-zing.