*the-end-is-here post deleted

i just decided to delete it.i figured out it doesn't make sense.

of friendster and friends

hats off to friendster.thanks to friendster because i got to know the people on my list of friends.u get to know if ur friend is single,married,in a relationship,u get to know the other side of the person,the what-nots and the testimonial says it all.i just found out that someone has a gf.i know I shouldn’t be affected because in the first place,we’re not doing anything wrong.but I don’t like the idea that he’s texting me when in fact he has a gf.of course i wouldn't feel good if i were on the gf's shoes.it’s about principles.char!i don’t wanna be a supporting actress or the villainess to someone else’s love affair. It doesn’t fit me. I deserve to have my own stage and I’m fit to be the protagonist. my head is perfectly designed for the tiara to fit.'nuff said.

my will be done.how would u feel if someone requires u to inform her what u do in ur life?it's not fair,right?all my life i make my own rules and i go where my feet leads me.i'm no longer a kid and i don't even ask permission from my mom if i need to go somewhere.what i do is inform her that i'm going to timbuktu or just tell her that i'm going somewhere.she doesn't even ask me the exact details.i don't wait for her to say no as long as i've informed her.i know she wouldn't say no because i believe she trusts me enough.but i don't like the idea that i need to tell someone re my whereabouts.hell no!i'm 23 and and i have the sole freedom to control my life.i don't need to tell anyone that i'll be flying to the moon and the what-nots.i've lived my life with my own rules.i value my individuality and i'm the captain of my ship.

where art thou?..a hundred text msgs,a # of missed calls,a handful of wrongsent msgs just to know u exist but u nvr answered.have u left me my friend?i may be a fool for thinking that you've betrayed me.i'm hoping that my heart and mind is wrong.i hope this time my intuition would fail me.i dunno why i'm feeling this way but i feel so uneasy and i'm trying to fight off this strong feeling.i'm afraid to let this feeling rule me.the last time we spoke,i sensed something.it seems like you were trying to imply something without having to say it.there was a hidden meaning in your smile and a truth waiting to be unveiled.it's like a code that i needed to decipher.hope you'll soon drop a line or two.

tick-tock-tick-tock

i'm sitting here in my station and sooo bored.i'm seated next to rob and mike but both of them logged out early because they went on halfday(lucky people).there are agents who were allowed to go on halfday because there's just a lil number of calls coming in.there's no queue because americans celebrated thanksgiving day.it's holiday in the US but we don't get doublepay for today(unfair!).so,i'm left here alone and i'm seated away from the other agents and away from my team mates.i dunno what to do.i've surfed the net,read blogs,sent emails and i got tired jumping from one site to another.i'm just waiting for the clock to strike 4:01 and i'm outta here.well, it's the end of the week and i love restdays.next stop will be ayala.nadina gave me her extra movie ticket.yipee!!i can watch a movie for free. i also have a different ticket for tomorrow's play also in ayala.hope i'll have a great weekend.that's all for now.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore. (i still believe in it.) In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Your Birthdate: May 2

Your Birthdate: April 2

You're so intuitive, it's like you have a sixth, seventh, and eighth sense. You connect with others freely and easily - and you tend to have many best friends. Warm and caring, it's hard for you to close your heart to anyone. Affection is like air for you - you need to give and receive it to survive. Your strength: Your universal compassion Your weakness: Your unpredictable mood swings Your power color: Mauve Your power symbol: Butterfly Your power month: February

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

*it's sooo true.trust me.the moment i see someone on the picture or during first meetings,i start giving my opinions on what i think and feel about the person.it's somehow weird but i trust my instincts.it never failed me.*

friendster

my friendster profile is driving my friends crazy.hehe...it's because i changed my status from single to married.hahaha...i just thought of adding spice to my profile.my friends bombarded me with text msgs and friendster msgs.everyone is asking me :"R U MARRIED?" and it's written in BOLD letters.some thought it's true coz i included my pic with my nephew lance on my account.they thought lance is my son.hahaha.for crying out loud,i'm sooo single.


Thursday, November 24, 2005

friendster crazy

i admit that i was friendster crazy(is there such a term?) last night.i'm stalking on someone(big time).i dunno why i'm doing this but i love it.i felt like there's a need for me to know them.it's like i'm gonna win a million bucks for having their personal info. i take note of every lil detail on their profile with screenshot.my officemate rob has been calling me a prof hacker.haha.he was so funny because he always sees me busy figuring out the html codes that's why he branded me as such.i even asked help from him just for me to hack their account.and mind you,he told me he can get the password for me.haha..i just opted not to because i'm not that mean.and i respect other people's privacy.i'm not a hacker but i feel good if i can find my way to access the restricted sites.i just love checking on someone else's account,checking on old friends,officemates,acquiantances,previous and present crushes,friends of friends and familiar faces.next victim is aden's suitor.bwahaha...i'm serious.

it feels like...

...ÜÜÜ
...ursula has stolen my voice
...i've eaten the poisonous apple
...the witch cut my hair
...i've broken the glass shoes
...millicent the witch has put me back to sleep
...someone has turned me into a beast
...tinkerbell has paid me a visit and sprinkled some of her pixie dust
...there's a need for me to visit neverland where no one will ever find me.

wake me up...
i'm fallin deeper into this dream.

it's complicated.go figure!

morning shift

the morning shift makes me sing this:
"wake up the day is dawning
and i don't feel like yawning
it's a brand new day a brand new day
wake up the world is shining
and i don't feel like whining
it's a brand new world a brand new world
let my hair down get my feet back on the ground
life is beautiful oh so wonderful
and full of the good things that can satisfy such a natural high
*just like the sun
and the sea and the sky
i wanna run, wanna swim,
wanna fly i feel so natural."

morning:

*less pressure

*no queue

*can sleep at least 8hours

graveyard:

*a pain in the @$$

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a box of chocolate

life is full of uncertainties.i dunno but this thought keeps on bugging me.maybe i'm just too fed up thinking about how my life would be few years from now.ask me how i see myself 10years from now and i don't have an answer to that.i have a skeleton of how i wanted my life to be but it's not worth telling everyone.forrest gump once said "life is like a box of chocolate.you'll never know what you're gonna get."it's true.life is not like 1+1 where you'll surely get an answer of 2.it's more than that.it's hard trying to figure out something which has not started,trying to count the chicks before it hatches,it's like computing for the value of Y wherein the other value is missing,guessing what's inside the box,and it's like waiting for someone to put down his cards and assume that he has the missing card for you to win the game,it's hard to assume that you've won,it's hard to put an end to something which has not started and it's even harder to be in denial when you feel that it's not going to end up the way you want things to turn out and it's confusing to put a period when all you wanted to do is put a comma.life is a never-ending series of the why,how,when,who,where.i got it now and i'm taking it slowly.it's too tiresome to think about the future.the long wait is even tiring but i learned to appreciate life.i just woke up one day and realized that i don't need to burden myself thinking about something which is beyond my control.might as well take a deep breath and open my eyes to something real and concrete.reality slapped me so hard and it brought me to where i should be.the future is so vague and so complicated by grabbing it all now.the future will surely come.i've decided to take care of the present and let time unfold what the future may bring.as i look at my life,i see myself enjoying whatever i have now.really!i'm taking everything i have now while i'm young.life may take us to places we've never been and it's given that we might be lost along the way but it will always lead us to the right path.there would always be a missing piece in our lives and we may search every corner in the world just to find it.without that missing piece,life will be boring.we continue to strive and live to find that piece.i'm just picking up the pieces from where i left off.i laugh,love,cry,live and learn.ÜÜÜ

Flat or Flattering?

"hey,ur so thin."
"omg! wala gyud ka nidako!"
"ur sis is taller than you."
"do u eat?"
"r u on diet?"
"u don't look like ur a working girl."
"what do u eat?"
"u look like ur the youngest."
"unsa naka nga year?graduating?"

i've heard these statements so many times and if i could only list down all the comments then it will require a whole page.one time when we (with my bro john;he is 5"9)were on our way home,john sat beside me and then the lady asked him,"dong,pletehan na ang bata?".oh my God!we were laughing the whole time.Mom said when I was born I was a 7-pound healthy baby girl which is normal. When i grew up, people recognized how lil I was. they were telling me that I'll soon grow big when I enter grade school. grade school came but everything stayed the same. then they said my body build will change after "pagdadalaga" but it didn't.so, they said it might be in high school and then in college or could be right after i graduate in college or maybe when i have a job of my own.or maybe when i get married and the guess goes on and on.shut up!as i look at myself in the mirror, it's not too bad.i don't look like those kids in somalia.right? i have a small frame, thin and petite i should say.i don't like to grow so big because i'm not tall.i'm only 5feet tall and i don't like to see myself with a bulging tummy, round faced, flabby arms and what-nots.i'm contented with how i look now.i might someday join the big asses association but as of now,this is me.i don't have a problem with baby fats slash bilbil,people say i look young for my age,i can shop at the kids department,i can always say "SP" if i ran out of coins etcetera.i know some people are so desperate and they spend so much just to lose weight.i don't wanna go through that hassle.i could either be flat or flattering.it's not how you look that matters but it's how you bring out the best in yourself.
didn't you know that big surprises comes in small packages?haha...

check this out: campaign for beauty

on my own

i didn't find it hard to adjust to how my life has changed when i relocated here in cebu.the only hard part was searching for the perfect shelter here.we stayed at golden peak for a week when we arrived and then the search for the boarding house started.it was not easy.my first boarding house was so near the office located in ucma ville,lahug and it's just a stone's away but i only stayed there for a month and a half.the place is untidy and we( js and i) don't like our boardmates.then i moved to r.landon and stayed there for 3months until something happened.it's freaky...there was this akyat-bahay guy.(forget it)then i moved back to ucma village and stayed with nadina for a month.it's the same neighborhood from where i stayed before.and to add,it is near BBRC(presohan gud) so our boarding house was like the extension of BBRC.haha.i was so paranoid then coz my shift starts at 1am and everytime i would go to work at around 12am,my heart would beat so fast and i could hear it thumping because i'm afraid some criminals might escape and might hold us as their hostages.my God!!!weird imagination.so after a month,i moved to labangon and stayed with debbie(an officemate) until now.i know it's far but i'm more comfortable staying there.it was a year of living away from home and most of the time eating alone which i really hate.back home i don't like it when someone would eat first.i wanted everyone to eat together because i love chitchats(for short,tsismosa ko.haha).but sometimes you can't deny the fact that silence is deafening. i read this somewhere :
"It's the loneliest feeling in the world; to find youself standing up when everyone else is sitting down. To have everybody look at you and say, "What's the matter with her?" I know what it feels like. Walking down an empty street, listening to the sound of your own footsteps. Shutters closed, blinds drawn, doors locked against you. And you aren't sure whether you're walking toward something, or if you're just walking away." it happens and it's like you're trapped in your own world.how sad.*teary-eyed*.as far as i could remember it was hard spending christmas here and taking calls while everyone else awaits the coming of Christ.with all the booms and bangs i heard outside,i was here sitting and as if nothing happened. i could still remember js and pam who would get homesick all the time with just the thought of spending christmas here.hearing christmas songs is such a pain in the ass because we know we'll be spending it away from home.as what franz said,"there would always be a first time".he was right.right after shift,kates invited me over for a breakfast in holiday inn and i slept.the moment i woke up around 7pm,i realized no one sells food outside so we went to ojh's place and had dinner there.good thing i had js,franz,jaeger and ojh at that time.that was almost a year ago.and this year,i'm not sure if i could go home.the last time i checked with our workforce,my leave for the christmas holidays was disapproved.last new year was even terrible.my supervisor issued a written warning because i went home without permission.and i'm not going to do that again this year.sayang ang performance bonus and i even lost my retention bonus worth 3800php because of that warning.damn.it sucks to be me.hehe.well,everything happens for a reason.i'll just embrace whatever will come my way.

agent shania turns one

i've been in cebu for a year and 10days today.when PS hired us,they relocated us here.we arrived last 31oct with pam,mike,khaki,js,kimmy,franz,js,jen a,jen b,lai and leah.
we first set foot here in PS last november 2... there were 25 of us then,22 graduated from training,4 resigned during a-bay and 18 graduated from a-bay.we had our first day live on the floor last january 3 and only 5 of us are left after a year.training period was fun and it was just like we were in school with new classmates and by the time we went live on the floor it was not easy.it was a year of being a dedicated online travel agent slash call girl.

i've made it through all kinds of calls:
*from passengers who doesnt know their flight information
*exchanges,airline schedule changes,flight reconfirmations
*passengers who asks you which airport is near manhattan and how far it is from their hotel(get a map!)
*passengers who asks you for directions at the airport(omg!!i've never traveled internationally)
*clients asking assistance in booking their reservations
*customers who arrived at the hotel without any reservation
*putting my feet on the caller's shoes
*passengers bull-shitting you
*customers shouting,cursing and calling us as a f**cking telephone operator
*arguing with customers
*parents who wanted to know if their children is on the plane(how the hell will i know?i'm not an airport agent)
*customers asking for a supervisor (which most of the time i decline)
*customers praising you for a job well done
*talking to desperate callers looking for an email buddy
*cursing dumb americans while on mute
*understanding and helping americans who doesn't know how to read the rules and restrictions
*waiting patiently to chat with a filipino caller
*i've spoken to thousands of callers,airline agents and hotel agents,and sometimes arguing with the airline agents especially US airways agents
*getting zeros and a 100% customer surveys
*customers reprimanding me and the other way around(hehe.true)
*wives cancelling their husbands reservations upon knowing that he booked a reservation for two
*getting used to callers who calls me honey,love,dahling,babe, and sweetie.(eww!!)
*dealing with deafmute clients using the relay operators which will take hours
*customers who treated you as their slave(damn!)and at the back of my mind i'll say "makaanha ka lang diri,pabirahan ta ka!".bwahaha!!!
*customers who wonder where and how i learned to speak english.and they even sound so surprised.
*filipinos who gets surprised that their call is routed to the philippines
*customers who pair you with their sons
*customers who loves my name which is SHANIA because it is unique and asking me if i sing like shania twain(owh,man!i can sing but i can't carry a tune)
*listening to customers rantings
*hearing words like f**ck,sh*t,cr*p which sounds nothing because you get to hear them everyday
*making sure they understand everything you just said
*breaking the bad news to the passengers which is hard but you have to be honest
*putting the customers on my pocket just to save my ass(sakto bah?)
*clients complaining with just a $5 charge
*dealing with americans who wants to prove that they are right even if they are not.
*arguing with the very frank and most reklamador americans(in your face!)
*callers who admit that they are dumb and they are at fault
*being patient with customers
*racial discrimination
*can't even say "it sucks to be you!" though i've once said "hung up and dial again".
*there are also those who are nice and who treats you as a person
*customers who hears and feels what your heart and mind is shouting
*being nice to customers
*going an extra mile just to help someone
*laughing,talking,smiling,cursing,almost in tears and raising my voice on the phone

but no matter how bad the call is,all calls will always end up with: "thank you for calling______.have a great day!"

it was a tough year full of wonderful experiences.i missed these people:

js-my roomie and partner in crime.hehe.we were classmates in college but i got to know her more when we became officemates.she's brilliant and smart(ass!haha).she's now connected with nestle(bongga!!)
pam-the class valedictorian.she tops our training exams (next to me.bwahaha.joke.).she's mysterious and super homesick all the time.she's cool and loves to listen but she never shares her lovelife.
jen-the ate.the CPA.don't ask why she works in a call center.smart and conservative.the vaporin necklace(according to js) and eyeglasses reminds me of her.
jaeger-loveteam ni jen.haha.he calls me nikkiboy and i call him jaega-jaega.
kimmy and leah-the noisy pair in class who were so funny and both are sexy.kimmy is smart and leah's brain is bigger than her boobs.hehe.
jovie and anne-groovy,sexy and fashionista moms.
bern-the make-up artist,make-over specialist and kikay.
cyrus-funny man.
franz-agent farell who turns to be agent corbin.good boy and i love the way he laughs.i love his dance pad.
iris-the other half of the dynamic duo according to sup john.we always do barkada lunch.hehe.super matchmaker.a good singer also.
enna-the spammer.a very nice girl who would always check how am doing.
ojh-the figure skater.i love her company.she's funny and easy to be with.we spent christmas with her family last xmas.
ethel-the teacher and the singer.
luanne-i love listening to her when she talks.ma-chika and her sleepy eyes reminds me of her.
hanna-pretty girl who always sleeps in class.
sherilyn-irate agent with a loud voice.she alway sings in class.
richard-the pornstar.need i say more?
swetie-her name speaks for itself.
marichel-sexy,pretty and irate?she reminds me of pocahontas and mulan.
christian-super funny guy.he tickles my fancy everytime he speaks of vip.
kates-the journalist.kates is so funny and sexy,too.she was my seatmate and she never fails to make me laugh.
tj-the only agent who manages to sleep while taking calls.be prepared to answer all his questions.

batch 31:
Bernadine Vallejos; Christian Farrales; Cyrus Van Mutia; Edsel Fetalvero; Enna Nesie Modequillo; Ethel Marie Entrampas; Francis Israel Balleras; Iris Angeline Susas; Jenfer Daria Berdon; Jo-Ann Sherly Awatin; Joanna Fedora Garcia; Johanna Ocampo; Hanna Loiuse Quimilat; Katherine Salanga;Kimmy Eguna; Leah Esta�ol; Luanne Alvarez; Marichel Corsiga; Marie Anne Tiu; Pamela Joy Lagrosa; Richard Rene Bunalos; Sherilyn Gepitulan; Swetie Guzman; Tiffany May Simene; TJ Cabili

it's my turn for a kickback

nope,i didn't have a hotel reservation but i just love to call it a kickback.i went home to talisayan last 31oct and went back last 5nov.i was sooo excited to go home and hanz(Workforce) must be annoyed by me because i always follow-up my leave everyday(not to mention he is a cutie.hehe).so there,my 5-day leave was approved.my restdays fell on 29oct-30oct plus my leave was approved from the 31oct-4nov plus another restday on 5nov-6nov which means a long vacation.my shift ended last 29oct at 8am which is saturady so it was possible for me to depart at 8pm but i decided not to because according to me it would be a hassle to leave right after my shift.my original plan was to leave last sunday but there's no avail trip with cebu ferries/superferry.only trans asia had a trip that night and i don't trust them that much.so, i opted not to leave.i bought a ticket to leave monday,31oct sched to depart at 945am and is sched to arrive at 6pm.wow!!!perfect!because i can catch a bus at 7pm and i'll be home by 9pm.i was super excited packing my things and i woke up at 6am and then headed to the pier at 8am. while waiting for the check-in instructions,an announcement was made and here it goes:
"to all passengers scheduled to depart from cebu to cagayan de oro ticketed to leave at 945am,your trip has been delayed.the boat is scheduled to arrive at the port of cebu at 3pm.we apologize for the delay caused by previous delays.good morning!"
(i've memorized it from word to word because it was repeated many times and it was so annoying to hear it again and again.)
wtf?i can feel my blood rushing back and forth and it was not a good surprise.had i known this could happen,i would have left last saturday.i almost turned into an irate customer but i chose not to coz it might ruin my entire trip.i just tried to think about the many possibilities why it got delayed and the what-nots.i even met new people and good thing they served free lunch and dinner.the price of the ticket is only 290php.it was a good catch so people were tempted to buy the ticket only to find out that the trip will be delayed for how many hours.the boat arrived at 4pm and we departed at 630pm on board superferry12.we could have been in cdo at 6pm if only it departed on time.we arrived at 1am and i got home at 430am.good thing my brother jan heard me and he gladly (i dunno if he was glad though.hehe)opened the door.i would just like to thank the couple i met at the terminal with their two kids who helped me forgot that we waited for seven hours or more,the youngters i chatted with who thought i was still in college(hehe) and who got concerned if i've eaten lunch,to my college classmate etta who i met at the boat who helped me find my deck and who was with me on the bus,to fritz who invited me to play tong-its with him for hours and stayed with me until we got off the boat and shared with me my very first experience to witness a shooting star,to the englisero gay who chatted with me who made me feel that the long line is too short and to the familiar faces who made me feel that i was not alone.