they said i gained weight

Hmmmp…

it pays to wait

"hui nganong wa man kay uyab"

"istrikta man gud ka"

"standards,standards..wa nay ayo"

i've been told about these things many times and these are just few of the many statements.years ago,i have a long list of the things that i'm looking for in a man.i've been telling myself i can't have those qualities in just one person.that would be impossible and would require years of praying,petitions,novenas, a number of masses and offerings.haha...it came to a point when i had to let go of that checklist.i'm left with three of the most important qualities.first is,the guy should become my friend.because if he is,i would feel comfortable and there would be no pretensions. second,a family-man.i wanted him to be family-oriented because i am too.third,my family should like him because i don't wanna choose between my family and him.lil did i know that just when i've let go of all the other qualities,God is working on my relationship.i would say i've been praying for that person.my friend nadina used to joke about my 20pesos every sunday.whenever i leave home to hear mass,she would always tell me "nik,ang 20pesos para sa imong bana.dapat lang i-pray and halaran".i know it's funny but prayer works wonders.i'm not saying he's worth 20pesos but there's nothing impossible with prayers.He prepared someone for me who i believe has met all the qualities.i dunno but i've been looking at it in all angles and i believe it's him. God has been so great.God gave me someone beyond my expectation.he's more than what i asked for.i know it pays to wait.

hmmm..

years ago, i found myself sitting infront of my sister while she relates how her bf that time went all the way from manila to baguio just to woo her. it felt like she's part of a koreanovela. my eyes twinkled seeing her so kilig.i was at awe and felt hopeless thinking no one's gonna do that for me.lo and behold!reggie made it real for me.i was on cloud 9 when reggie told me he's coming to cebu.oh boy!he just made my day when he sent me a copy of his e-tkt.my officemates nadina and dax kept on singing "i will cross the ocean for you" right after i told them.hahaha...*kilig*kilig*i didn't expect he would do that.i know some pips wondered why he went all the way here and didn't go directly to our hometown.some asked why he has to go to cebu knowing that i'm also sched to go home for our town fiesta.i know many were surprised to see us together and wondered if it's really us.i know many raised their eyebrows and eager to find the answer.YES,it's US.

the countdown begins

While we were having bfast earlier,Debbie was saying that it’s four months to go and it’s December. She’s right it’s September 1,2006 today. then I said “oh my God!it’s BER,pasko na!pero malamig ang pasko.” our other housemate jaja having heard what I said reacted, “haha…as if wala ka naanad(as if ur not used to it).” she was right but it’s different now.*sob* hehe…hmmm…I can hear the bells ringing,the simbang gabi,gift-giving,food,caroling,xmas tree,parties and a lot more. christmas would always be my fave time of the year. cheers to a merry xmas in four months!

how it started

i've been wanting to write something about me and my bf but everytime i'm online and ready to pour out my emotions,i get disoriented.i can't even start a single sentence.i dunno how to start or what to say first.this has been sitting on my mailbox and i keep on editing the whole thing.whatever...

he's 24 and i'm 24.aquarius vs. taurus.i've known reggie since we were kids but we're not close.uhm...family friends.everyone knows everyone.our grandparents are neighbors.i was so lil then for me to remember how he was like when we were kids.i dunno if he was there when dad would tag me along to one of his saturday morning basketball games because our parents are basketball buddies.and i was always there with the other kids cheering for our dads. we're not classmates coz he went to school early.we were schoolmates in grade school but i only got to talk to him in high school.he was there eleven years ago during the isaiah play and the YFC too.just last month when i went home,we rummaged my old things and he found my diary.i immediately took it from him and found out that his name is always there in almost every page.haha...it's like we talked everyday.i remembered it so well during the first week of classes when we were under the shade of the talisay tree with titing(hs friend) and i was wearing a new dress and then they kept on teasing me and they started calling me "dalaga".he was always there during my runaway days.i remembered him inviting me on his bday but i didn't come.he's a basketball afficionado and was a member of my dad's bball team. i (with my sis)cheered for the basketball team just so we could join the team eating right after the game.haha.he stayed overnight and attended the wake of my granny.and was still there when dad passed away.i can still remember him bringing coffee and other stuffs.i remember the dimple,the megawatt smile and mr. chinito.the mr.nice guy in high school. he's someone i did't expect to like me.he's one of the farthest people in my mind that i could think of to like me.(who am i anyway?)he's someone who is always in the background.the tease.the bearer.the friend.the mailbox or should i say the postman?the messenger or whatever you call it.and then come fourth year,i only get to see him during basketball games and a simple "hi and bye" would do.then he left.the world is too small for us not to remember each other.after 4years,we started sending msgs through friendster.then the long emails followed,chat and it progressed to phone marathons.that started it.june 14,2006 was the day.

the stalking continues

 

part of my routine is to check my statcounter and there's something interesting about it.someone's checking my site,i thought she's/he's just one of the bloghoppers who chanced upon my site.her/his location is PALAU.wow i said to myself because it's a nice place as featured on TV.they have nice beaches there and it's one of my dream destinations.anyway,she's/he's consistently checking my site.hmmm...i can't remember if i have friends who lives there.plus she/he checks it from my friendster blog.how come?hmmm again...but i didn't care finding out who she/he is.i really didn't have any idea who that person is until this afternoon.i went online during my lunch to check my mails and friendster too.hehe...lo and behold!just when i viewed those who updated their profiles and added photos,something caught my attention.it's the word PALAU...hmmm..now i know who she is.i can't believe it that everything has been laid out infront of my very own eyes.thank God she found her way here.i'm not guilty.i will not take it back whatever i've said in the past....

 

**wink*wink**

too much has been said

while Lebanon is being bombed 24/7,there's also a word war going on here.thank you to those who defended me and who left comments.thanx to reggie,brat,jane,aden,cath,pintas,anonymous/one of my fans,my friends,and to those who've read my post and chose not to comment.

i'm good when you're good but i can be ur worst nightmare if u want me to.i can only think of two things why A.D. did this to me.that would be jealousy and envy. i've known her since grade school not because she's a head-turner,not because she tops her class,not because she is sosyal,not because she belongs to the alta sociedad but because we live in the same place and go to the same school where everyone knows everyone.it's just a "hi and bye" if i see her.i know she had petty quarrels in high school but who am i to judge her.i heard she's maldita but i didn't care because she was never mean to me.i know she would always be there for her friends and would really fight for them like how friends would do.she is the Ex's bestfriend as i said and i know she felt bad for her.she no longer leaves comments here but i know that she's been checking my site.

an open letter:

am,
u can never dictate someone what to do especially if it involves feelings.u cannot ask him to love her because his heart belongs to someone else.he's 24 and he's in his right state of mind to make decisions.and i very well know reggie would not settle for the second best.men would always go for the best.i just don't know if ur fighting for ur friend this time.or maybe ur also fighting for yourself.i tell you to move over because u don't have a chance here.i don't need reggie for me to have a greener pasture.i'm sooo not using him for me to go to the US of A.maybe that's the reason why ur running after him.why did u have to go to canada?i can stay in the philippines,be happy and enjoy the greener pasture.i don't have to look somewhere else for a greener pasture.i can eat more than 3times a day and anytime i feel hungry.i can watch movie anytime without waiting for someone to pay for my ticket.i can go on a quick vacation,pay my bills,go online anytime and i don't need to ask load from anyone,shop, and have fun.i have my family,my friends,my relatives and i have reggie too.that for me is the greenest pasture.i don't need to be a millionaire to be happy.i'd rather be happy and poor.but in reality,i'm afraid to be poor.but i'm more afraid to be sad.who would even want to be poor?is that hard to understand?i just wanted to have a comfortable life.i just wanted a simple life.i'm not sosyalera.why should i?i won't sweat it out to be one.i don't know how u define sosyalera.if u'll just use two of your brain cells,u would understand what i'm trying to tell you.i never really brag about my life but you are going way overboard.i would not humble myself and say sorry to you for all the things that has been said here.why should i?u deserve it.losers would always be losers.being in canada will not make u a god.if i were in ur place(which i wouldn't wish to be in),i would make it up by being a good person.too bad,u weren't there when God gifted us with manners,beauty and brains.double time working young lady,let me tell you that no matter how u work ur ass off in canada,u cannot buy beauty and good manners.it's something that should come from within.being beautiful is not really being pretty.if u have a good heart,you'll learn that happiness does not depend on greener pastures.you cannot take my tiara away from me.get a life!

***i dunno what's next after this.i just wanna put an end to what she started.too much has been said.

puh-leeeaaassse...

tsk...tsk...

*where do u wanna go now?

beach.bring my pink beach bag with my slippers,a fashion magazine, two-piece,cover-ups,shades,digicam,sunblock and other travel essentials.i wanna spread my sarong on the beachfront and enjoy the beautiful view.i needed to unwind.i just wanna feel the sand on my feet and enjoy the sun and the water.i've been checking the web for nice beaches.

spa.and a nice massage will do.

camp.i think it will be fun.and it has to be near a lake.

roadtrip.i wanna go to davao coz i've never been there.

*ultimate summer destination?

amanpulo resort.'nuff said.

*weekdays are spent for?

talk to reggie for hours through skype.going online is one of the things that makes me sane.hear mass on sunday.watch movie after mass.eat lechon.laundry.go to sto.niño on monday.another movie.dinner with friends.grocery.go to the mall.team outing.or a quick trip to dalaguet.my RD is on sun-mon.

*watch TV?

yes and no.the last time i watched tv was last monday.i had nothing to do that time because i promised reggie i'd wake him up at 1am.i enjoyed watching "america's top model" on studio 23 and i kept on saying "wow!there are a lot of new commercials" when in fact it's old.that is because i don't watch tv anymore.i know i've missed so many shows.i even got surprised about how bad the war in lebanon went.i never expected it's that serious.when i heard mass last month,there was this prayer for peace thingie and that's when i found out...haha... don't even say it.i know.thank God...i could still get updates online.i'm in-the-know now.


*what's the sexiest thing you've worn?

two-piece.

*do u love salt?

hmmm...why not sugar?hehe...yeah...salt for almost all types of fruits even ripe ones.

*what's one of the things that u had to let go?

the mosquito net.anyone close to me can attest to this.i can't sleep without it.it's more of a comfort zone.but sometimes we need to leave our comfort zones.i've had many tries before i finally got over it.i once placed it in a big plastic bag and put it on top of the cabinets.but i ended up waking up in the middle of the night,climb up and sleep with it on my feet.when i went to school in CDO,i had to cut a portion of it because it would be too bulky if i bring the whole thing. lil by lil,i easily got over it.i'm mosquito net-free now.hehe...

*movie u wanna watch this weekend:

correction,movies.click,just my luck and my super EX-girlfriend.

i'm tagging everyone...

go to this site :

http://www.freestuffhotdeals.com/hacker/1.html

this game is fun...it brings out "the robert langdon" in you.

have fun!!!i find it hard but it feels great after taking it.whew!

you'll get this msg once ur done:

CONGRATULATIONS!

GREAT JOB!!

doncha wish...

gotcha...

right after i published my post yesterday,i searched the web to check who anonymous is.
the mysterious person intrigued me with her comments:

special thanks to my friend cath for giving me a clue.*clap*clap*i have a statcounter on my blog that can trace the IP address.and anonymous accessed my blog from my friendster blog.she accessed my blog the same time the comment was posted on my site...it's exciting to find out who the culprit is.i dont want anyone to mess up with me.she may think i'm a neophyte in the cyberspace but definitely NOT.i kick ass in cyberspace.hehe...

screenshot from my statcounter:



screenshot from friendster:

i am 99% percent it's the same person.i know her since grade school.she happens to be my bf's classmate and the EX's best friend.'nuff said...

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED

to whom it may concern

I recently got a comment on my prev post from anonymous.i tried to ignore it but people are asking me.my friend cath sent me a msg asking me who anonymous is.and she stated that it's kinda scary.my sister also said the same thing.i really don't know who he/she is.i have a strong feeling that he/she knows me so well.i got the comment right after i went home in time for our fiesta and the whole town knew that i was with my bf.a lot of people got surprised even my friends and his circle of friends too.  there was no objection from my family and his family.so,maybe anonymous saw us there and checked my friendster acct because we recently uploaded pictures there.and since i have a link to my blog,maybe he/she found his/her way here.he maybe one of those guys who was on my busted list.doncha wish ur gf was hot like me?hahaha...or could be his EX.with all confidence,i would say that i will never ever be insecure with her as my rival.plus he is now mine.so,move over.or maybe a jealous friend of his ex who thinks i don't deserve him. well,i've met the whole clan not that i requested him to do that but they all wanted to meet me and he's proud of me.bleeh... i really don't have anything againts u guys.i'm just kinda intrigued because it looks like ur threatening me.it's too obvious that u just found ur way here because if u are a constant reader here,u wouldn't be browsing through my old posts anymore.hmmm....i share the same thoughts with some people who happened to read my blog.so,maybe i'm right.

 

owh...just remember that this is the world wide web and everything can be traced.so,i'll gotcha one of these days.i'll be kicking ass sooner than u expected.

 

my heart screams "help!"

it's a long story to start with but i'm nervous more than excited.tomorrow is the big day.i'm going to pick up an old friend at the pier.i haven't seen him in 6 years.i dunno what to do,what to say and how  to react.he's here just to visit me and he's also going home with me tomorrow night.you may think it's a lil weird because he arrives here sunday morning and he leaves sunday night which gives him less than 24hours to stay here.he purposely did that.he just wanted to see me.but i'm really very nervous.how i wish i could move it to a different day but this is it.every minute brings me closer to him.help!

walang kwentang post

 

back pain,headache,dysmenorrhea... i'm really not feeling ok lately.i dunno.maybe i just chose not to be ok.i'm not even excited about going home.it's like wala lang.i'm on leave from 9july-18july.it's a long vacation.i used to be sooo ready whenever i plan to go home.there goes the day1 to day10 list,counting the remaining nights,and planning my itinerary.but this is so much different.i dunno why.there are days when i just wanted to cry for no reasons at all and then emptiness would fill in.am i watching too much movies that i sometimes get carried away?hahay...i only have two working days left and i'll be leaving on sunday.

blahbity-blahs

i've been to cebudoc earlier and had my check-up.the area below my underarm(just above my waistline) is acting crazy.it hurts like hell.and as paranoid as i am, i have a lot of weird thoughts.it came to a point when i've thought of dying thinking the pain would lead into something serious.i realized i'm not ready to die yet.i just don't wanna die early.i don't think i've done enough good deeds.hehe...thank God the doctor said there's nothing to worry about and it's just muscle pain.the med?watch superman.i'm just kidding.

im in love with...

superman.i love the movie.it's cool.christopher reeves is christopher reeves and i love him too but having brandon routh as the new man of steel is a different story.he is hawt.i almost fell off my seat the moment Clark turned into Superman.let's just say i'm lois and my clark remains to be nothin but a dream.hehe... u should watch it.kevin spacey rocked as lex luthor.but guess what?who would freakin' cry over that movie?i just did.damn it...i cried for reasons i don't know.

the world needs a superman.

blah-blah...

i know when i don't feel good because i crave for food.it's something that would make me feel good.maybe i'm just not ok.i dunno why it's happening to me.it's weird.

all about me

1. Sent you a text message:
-- my HS classmate gaylord
2. Saw you cry:
-- i can't remember
3. Went to the movies with you?
-- a friend
4. You went to the mall with?
-- nesly
5. You went to dinner with?
-- officemates
7. Said 'I love you' to you and really meant it?
-- RG
8. Broke your heart?
-- uhm...
9. Made you laugh?
-- my team mate barry
10.Talked on the phone?
-- paul gibbons

W O U L D Y O U R A T H E R?
1. Pierce your nose or tongue?
-- none of the above
2. Be serious or be funny?
-- both

3. Drink whole or skim milk?
-- not milk please.coke nalang..
4. Die in a fire or drown?
--none of the above
5. Spend time with your parents or worst
enemies?
--parents

D O Y O U P R E F E R. .
1. Gray or black?

-- black
2. Color or Black and white photos?
-- B/W
3. Lust or love?
-- Looove actually
4. Sunrise or sunset?
-- sunset
5. M&Ms or Skittles?
-- M&Ms
6.Staying up late or waking up early?
--staying up

A N S W E R T R U T H F U L L Y !!
1.Do you like anyone?
-- yezzz...
2. Do they know it?
-- no

D O Y O U P R E F E R. .
1. Sun or moon?
-- moon

2. Winter or Fall?
-- fall
3. Left or right?
-- right
4. 10 acquaintances or having two best
friends?
--two best friends
5. Sunny or rainy?
-- sunny
6. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?
-- chocolate ice cream

A B O U T Y O U
1. What time is it?
-- 424pm
2. Name?
-- tiffany may
3. Nickname(s):
-- nikki
4. What is your birth date?
-- may 2,1982
5. What do you want? coke or pepsi?

-- coke
6. Where do you want to live?
-- philippines
7. How many kids do you want?
-- 4 or 5
8. You want to get married?
-- yup.i don't wanna grow old alone.

U N I Q U E !

1. Can you roll your tongue?
--yup
2 . Can you raise one eyebrow?
-- yup
3. Can you cross your eyes?
-- yup

R A N D O M
1. Which shoe goes on first?
-- right
2. Ever thrown one at someone?
-- nope

OTHER
1. Do you twirl your spaghetti?
-- yes
2.Have you ever eaten spam?
-- yes
3. Favourite ice cream:
-- ube/rocky road
4. How many kinds of cereal are in your
cabinet?
-- none.


I N T H E L A S T M O N T H , HA V E Y O U ?
1. had a b/f or g/f
-- nope

2. Bought something:
-- toiletries..does that count?
3. Sang:
-- never mind
4. Been kissed:
-- nope
5. Been hugged:
--yup
6. Felt stupid:
--yes
7. Missed someone:
--yes
8. Danced crazy:
-- nuh...

9. Gotten your hair cut:
-- i'm planning to next week.

10. Cried:
-- yeah...damn movie.

i will haunt you

i hate it if someone would tell me "i will kill myself".don't u just hate it when people tell you this?

i would really hate you for the rest of my life.one time when someone told me that,i  almost  got into a vehicular accident.good thing it didn't happen or else i will haunt that person.i may not be the reason why he wanted to die but it somehow attracts bad energy.hmmp...

i've been tagged by my cousin kiting

1. What time did you get up this morning?
-- 830AM.
2. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
-- tokyo drift
3. What is your favorite TV show?
-- i don't watch tv anymore(read:no tv)
4. What did you have for breakfast?
-- sandwich
5. What is your middle name?
-- querol
6. What is your favorite cuisine?
-- filipino, italian, american ,japanese
7. Your favorite Potato chip?
-- pringles(cheese)
8. What is your favorite CD at the moment?
--none.
9. What kind of car do you drive?
-- this question doesn't apply to me.
10. Favorite sandwich?
-- bacon and egg
11. What characteristic do you despise?
-- ??
12. Favorite item of clothing?
--i call it my cotton rag shirts.haha..
13. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go?
-- paris or spain
14. What color is your bathroom?
-- blue
15. Favorite brand of clothing?
-- limited too.it fits me well.
16. Where would you want to retire?
--philippines
17. Where were you born?
-- talisayan,misamis oriental
18. Favorite sport to watch? -
- basketball/soccer
19. Who do you least expect to send this back?
-- aden
20. Person you expect to send it back first?
-- i dunno.i'm not sending this.
21. What laundry detergent do you use?
-- tide
22. Coke or Pepsi?
-- Coke
23. Are you a morning person or night owl?
-- i thought i'm a night owl before but when i was on GY shift,i had second thoughts.
24. Do you have any pets?
-- i hate it.
25. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share with everyone?
-- yup but i'll share it to the people close to me.
26. What did you want to be when you were little?
-- a nun or lawyer
27. Favorite candy bar?
-- ferrero rocher/choc with almonds/cadbury/crunch
8. What is your best childhood memory?
-- talisayan+calamcam+flores de mayo+cousins+holyweek(sugat)+patintero+sinehan ni edgardo+mangga ni miguel+ purok2
29. What are the different jobs you have had in your life?
-- this is my first job.
30. What color underwear are you wearing?
-- pink
31. Nicknames?
-- check my post on this here.
32.Piercing?
-- two
33. Eye color?
-- dark brown
34. Ever been to Africa?
-- nope
35. Ever been toilet papering?
-- what?
36. Loved someone so much it made you cry?
-- hmmm...
37. Been in a car accident?
-- nope.simbako.
38. Croutons or bacon bits?
-- bacon bits
39. Favorite day of the week?
-- monday(movie time)
40. Favorite restaurant?
-- casa verde
41. Favorite flower?
-- tulips
43. Disney or Warner brothers?
-- disney
44. Favorite fast food restaurant?
--kfc
45. What color is your bedroom carpet?
-- no carpet.
46. How many times did you fail your driver's test?
-- i haven't taken any driving test
47. Besides this one, from whom did you get your last email from?
-- james bender.*wink*
48. What store would you choose to max out your credit card?
-- i saw a nice bikini in BTC and it's 5thou.
49. What do you do most often when you are bored?
-- sleep, eat,surf the net,watch movies
50. Bedtime?
-- 1AM
51. Who are you most curious about their responses to this questionnaire?
-- kiting
52. What are you listening to right now?
-- none
53. What is your favorite color?
-- pink
54. Lake, Ocean or river?
-- river
55. How many tattoos do you have? -
- none.
56. Which came first, the chicken or the egg?
-- chicken i think.
57. How many people are you sending this email to?
-- none.i don't wanna send it that's why i'm posting this.

Cure to Boredom

1. Do u think you're ok?
--of course.i slept last night with a smile on my face and woke up today with a bigger smile.
2. Ever donated blood?
-- Nope.
3. Fav color(s)?
-- Pink,Orange,Green,chocolate brown
4. Accessories you usually wear?
-- Earrings
5. Last place you went to?
--the other building in the office to access yahoomail and friendster
6. Last person/s u went out with?
-- lunch with my officemates
7. Last person who called you?
-- regie.it was a two-hour long distance call.beat that.
8. Ever had a baby?
-- nope.
9. Last Movie you watch and with whom?
-- The fast and the furious:tokyo drift;with my friend kim.
10. Any piercings?
--Two
11. Act on stage before?
-- yup.
12. Struck by lightning before?
--nope
13. Ever wished you could turn back time? To when?
--High School.there's something i wanted to know and will only be answered if there's a time machine.haay...
14. What would you do if you woke up one day to find yourself to be with someone from
the opposite sex?
--i dunno.freak out maybe.
15. Last person you met for the first time?
-- none in particular
16. What will you be doing tomorrow?
-- Work. attend rob's birthday celeb at the beach
17. Ever thought of robbing a bank?
-- haha...it was a joke.
18. Do people like you?
--yes.
19. What was the last game you played on the computer?
--solitaire
20. The color of your mobile phone?
-- blue
21. Do you hate someone at the moment?
--i hate the It department because they blocked yahoo here.hehe..
21. Are you in a serious relationship right now?
--no.
22. What is on your mouse pad?
--USA map courtesy of expedia.
23. What's your favorite fruit?
-- MANGO
24. Do you wish to be a pilot someday?
-- i thought about it when i was a kid
25. What is the color of your pants right now?
--blue
26. Do you have a lot of admirers?
-- i dunno.
27. Is your hair long or short?
--long
28. Do you like going to the supermarket with yourparents?
~yes.

29. How long does it take for you to fix your hair?
~ 3minutes.

30. Where did you go last night?
~ HOME

31. What you had for breakfast this morning?
~chicken adobo for brunch

32. What did you have for dinner last night?
~ tapa

33. Do you sleep alone?
~ nope.

34. Who is beside you now?
~ my officemate ana

35. What is the last thing you touched before you went on the computer?
~ my jacket

36. Ever had a dream come true?
~yes.many times.

37. What's the worst thing you've done all week?
~ saying NO when what i really wanted to say is YES.

blast from the past

tongue-tied.speechless.floating maybe.

 

i dunno what else to say.i'm at a loss for words. *wink*