if only

if only fairy godmothers exist, i would wave my wand and grant someone else's wish.*sigh*

underworld:evolution

blogger is back

nothing much to do here in the office.not queueing with an interval of 20minutes,everyone's busy surfing the net and checking mails,i'm done checking mails,figuring out how to access yahoomail,shutterfly,photobucket,editing pictures,pouring out my creative juices on the online artpad and now i'm happy because blogger is back.woohoo!!!i know it's temporary but at least it's available today.

PS unwrapped

peoplesupport company christmas party

asia town IT park open field

december 17, 2005

the stage

the party girls

order of the phoenix team

with my batchmate enna

with sup chai and sup jan ranny;

with krish,db,nad and sup gnet

the dancefloor

look what i've got?i won an egc at the party.i'm still waiting for it to be activated.

it's the same shirt

i bought the shirt as my gift to lance.since i wasn't sure if it would fit him,what i did was i tried it out at the fitting room of spin in ayala.it looked good on me and i fell in love with the shirt.

christmas in talisayan

christmas was a whole lot of fun!here are the pics.

i'm back

i just came back from a 10-day vacation.i left on the 23rd of dec and arrived here tuesday, the 3rd of january...it was a long vacation.too long that when i got back to work,i was late for 5minutes.i arrived 30minutes prior to 9am and when it was time to log-in at 8:59am,i forgot my phone log-in.i couldn't figure out the exact combination and i've been trying out other numbers but i failed.so,i rushed to my locker and searched for my old files.good thing i had it written on my notepad.i'm back to reality where i need to work my ass off in order to survive.i still wanna bury myself in bed and rest.my vacation was great.i didn't have to wake up early and go to work.i got to eat real food slash lutong bahay. it was a break from eating noodles,barbecue and canned goods.true.i didnt have to go outside the house and buy food.it felt good upon waking up in the morning and you smell that someone's cooking in the kitchen.it was even better to just sit on the table and eat without having to think what to eat.it was great waking up in the morning and seeing lance beside me.i didn't have to put on my bra or comb my hair just to buy shampoo in the nearby store. i didn't have to experience traffic in order to go somewhere.everything is just a walk away but i had fun riding the sikad and just going around the place with lance.i had full control of the remote control and had the freedom to watch tv.i've been telling my sister that all commercials are new and she was like "what?".hehe...i sooo love watching the commercials (which i hated before because it's too long) and i got hooked watching "only you".hehe... it's like everything is new and i found out that a lot has been happening outside the workplace.i missed the neighborhood.it was nice seeing my friends in high school,catching up and partying with them 'til the wee hours of the morning.and most of all,i feel like i'm the greatest cheeseball on earth because someone i didn't expect texted me that he likes me.he was the farthest person in my mind that i could think of to actually like me.i look up to him as a good guy and i'm a bit of devil-ish.hehe...*sigh* the kilig would always be there but we are miles away.the door is always open but i will not be always at the doorway waiting for him to come.so,there...it was like i just woke up from a dream.as of now,im back taking calls,headsets on and waiting for the next call.

this blog will remain inactive

blogger is on leave...

merry christmas and a happy new year!

changes in 5 years

You'll see how much i've changed over 5 years.

5 years ago...
How old were you?18
Where were you? CAGAYAN DE ORO DURING WEEKDAYS AND ON WEEKENDS,IN TALISAYAN.
What grade were you in? A SOPHOMORE IN COLLEGE
Where did you go to school?~ ATENEO DE CAGAYAN
Where did you live? HOME SWEET HOME IN TALISAYAN AND MY COUSIN'S HOUSE IN CAGAYAN
Where did you hang out 5 years ago? I JUST GO TO WATCH MOVIES
How was your hair style? SHORT HAIR
Did you wear braces? NO...
Did you wear glasses? NEVER
Who were your friends? MY HIGHSCHOOL FRIENDS AND SHYSHY
Who was your girlfriend/boyfriend? NONE
Who was your celebrity crush? RYAN PHILLIPPE,BRAD PITT,MARCO LOBREGAT,AGA,ETC...
Who was your regular-person crush? LESTER.(I even swapped my sched to be in one of his classes.haha...)DANREB.(mycrush since high school) ACE.
How many piercings did you have? only 1.my grandma pierced my ears years ago but i got tired wearing the earrings so i lost the other one.
How many tattoos did you have? ZERO
What was your biggest fear? GHOST...MATH(hehe)
Had you smoked a cigarette yet? YUP.I DON'T SMOKE BUT I TRIED IT.
Had you gotten drunk or high yet? NEVER.WELL,I'M A NATURAL HIGH IF I GET KILIG OR IF I'M EXCITED.
Which of your pets were still alive? NONE.

Now see the results below, to see how much things have changed since then.

Present Day...
How old are you? 23
Where were you? CEBU
What grade are you in? I'M A POST-GRAD STUDENT WORKING AT PEOPLESUPPORT CEBU.
What school do you attend? FULL-TIME WORKING GIRL
Where do you live? WE RENTED AN APARTMENT IN LABANGON
Where do you hang out now? WHEREVER MY FEET LEADS ME.
How is your hair style now? LONG HAIR
Do you wear braces? NO
Do you wear glasses? NO
Who is your best friend/s? HS FRIENDS,OFFICEMATES AND OLD FRIENDS
Who is your girlfriend/boyfriend? I'M SAD.(SINGLE,AVAILABLE AND hopefully DESIRABLE...hehe)
Who is your celebrity crush? STILL BRAD PITT,ORLANDO BLOOM,STILL MARCO LOBREGAT(he's been my crush since time immemorial...hehe),AGA,OWEN WILSON,ETC...
Who is your regular-person crush? mr urban hunk RJ.MARK.DANREB(haven't gotten over him)...HAHA...sigh... COLLIN.(catch me i'm collin..hehe..)
How many piercings do you have? TWO.I FINALLY GOT THE OTHER ONE LAST 2003
How many tattoos do you have? STILL NONE.
What is your biggest fear? GHOST...GROWING OLD ALONE...
Have you smoked a cigarette yet? YUP.I DON'T SMOKE BUT I'VE TRIED IT.
Have you gotten drunk or high yet? NEVER.WELL,I'M A NATURAL HIGH IF I GET KILIG OR IF I'M EXCITED.
Which of your pets are still alive? NONE

all my bags are packed,i'm ready to go

i'm ready to go home and i have my bags under my station.the guards on duty were shocked because i was toying around my bags.right after shift,i'm off to pier4 because my trip departs at 845pm.i slept around 1am this morning because i was busy packing up my things.i arrived at 1010pm last night and i panicked because i haven't planned what to bring and i started from scratch.i only had 4hours of sleep because i woke up at 4am and went back to sleep at 6am.i didn't have a bad dream but it felt weird.it felt like there are thousands of butterflies in my stomach.i could even feel my blood rushing through my veins and arteries.the last time i felt this way was last saturday just before our party started.i was telling debbie that it felt weird.and only to find out i won a P500gc.hehe.so,does this mean i'm gonna win the lotto this time?haha...or it could be that i'm so excited to go home.well,i'll just wait for the day to end.as of now,i'm just enjoying my last day of work for the year 2005.
happy holidays everyone...

one week more to go...

and it's christmas...i'm excited to go home but i'm not ready to go home yet.my xmas list is halfdone.i had a hard time looking for presents for my manito and for my godchildren.i've searched the tiangge,the malls and bazaars.instead of buying gifts for someone,i ended up buying something for myself.aarghh...i bought two cute kamiseta tops and a pink cardigan at the PS bazaar,the cute trinkets,the pearl chain necklace, and a blouse.i also went to mepz trade fair but i didn't like it and ended up empty-handed.it was just like going to the usual market place and the quality sucks.the only thing i loved there is the imported cap.for the second time around my manito is 'tie ning.i really had a hard time thinking what to give her.thank God i went out with her yesterday and she wanted to buy the 365days with the Lord journal(?m not sure what it's called) but she decided to just buy it in manila after xmas.well,i'll just buy it for her.my only concern now is the gifts for my godchildren.the fairy godmother is so busy.how i wish i coud just wave my wand and then voila!but i can't do that.well,i hope everything will end up well.i'm just too excited to go home.

i can hear the bells ringing

i just got an email from forcedesk that my leave was approved from the 26th of december to the 30th.woohoo!having my leave approved is something to be happy about.really!!!if you just know how hard it is to get an approval for our leaves...(di bah cath and nad?) i'm sooo excited to go home.everyone's going home.i envy my aunt,my cousins,my sister,lance and my bro because they are all going home ahead of me.my sis and lance arrived yesterday,my aunt is leaving today and my bro is leaving on the 20th,my cousins will be there on the 20th, 'tie lang and her fiance is also there and lance's bday celebration is on the 22nd. (ulahi nko sa chika ani.hehe...)but it's ok as long as i could spend xmas at home.

the prince and me

long time ago in the year 1998, the king died.everyone in the palace was saddened with what happened.it was a great loss for everyone not just for the royal family but also for the commoners.the queen,the princes and the princesses have to go through a lot of adjustments since the king died.but the simene dynasty didn't end there.the eldest son left the palace to follow his dream,then followed by the second child.the other children were still in school that time.the royal family has to bear the pain but life has to go on.when you lose someone,someone is destined to come along.and then five years after the death of the king,the royal family welcomed another addition to the family.on december 11,2002, princess jane gave birth to a healthy baby boy and he was named lance vincent rafael.prince lance gave color to the palace and it brought happiness to everyone in the palace.the birth of the prince brought life to everyone.the prince visits the palace every year and the princess throws a party for him.he has been the envy of the other princes in the neighboring palace.today,the prince turned three years old.

happy birthday lance!

i'm painting a happy face

"wake up the day is dawning and i don't feel like yawning

it's a brand new day, a brand new day

wake up the world is shining and i don't feel like whining

it's a brand new world, a brand new world

let my hair down

get my feet back on the ground

life is beautiful oh so wonderfuland

full of the good things that can satisfy such a natural high

just like the sun and the sea and the sky

i wanna run, wanna swim, wanna fly

i feel so natural"

i'm happy.it's true that happiness comes from within.it doesn't have to depend on other people.it feels good to find inner peace and it's very enlightening.i think the christmas spirit is within me.i told krishna(an officemate) that it's too tiring to feel bad.i don't wanna feel bitter towards someone.as human as we are,we make mistakes and learn from them.it's a matter of accepting and understanding the individual differences.i am me and you are you.how good it could be to see someone smile and laugh.

just like heaven

the world is so complicated.so,i treated myself yesterday and watched the movie alone to keep me sane.(uli man gud ka cath,la ko uban.hehe.)it's a chick flick and definitely a feel-good movie. Mark Ruffalo and Reese Witherspoon are both excellent.i love them.the chemistry was great.i really had a good laugh because it was a heartwarming movie.

clutter

i dunno how to describe my current state of mind.everything seems so cloudy.how i wish i could put everything into writing.but i find it hard to find the exact words.i dunno how i'll start this but i guess i have to follow what my heart and mind whispers.i couldn't even understand my dream last night.it was confusing.i believe that whatever i have on my unconscious comes out through my dreams.everything is a clutter.how i wish i could drown myself into my own world.sometimes when the real world is so cruel,i wish i could go to neverland where i would feel unharmed and untouched.it's like i don't know myself anymore.i'm intellectually confused,emotionally disturbed,physically drained and spiritually challenged.i hate this feeling.so many contradictions.change is the only permanent thing in this world.something beautiful may turn out to be so ugly,something great may turn out to be disgusting, something sweet may turn out to be bitter,something perfect may turn out to be full of flaws,a smile will soon be replaced with a sad face and in order for us to feel happy we have to experience how it is to be sad.it feels great the first time you smile after u go through a bumpy and curvy ride.life is a series of ups and downs.it takes us to the greatest heights and it drowns us sometimes.i seemed to feel ok when i'm with other people but everytime i'm alone,it's when this damn feeling starts to eat me.it's like i'm walking alone on a very long street and no one is around,it's like i'm surrounded with so many people and yet they don't see me and it's like i'm standing in the middle of a very wide farm and i feel so small.these are days when i feel like saying "it sucks to be me!"

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i just decided to delete it.i figured out it doesn't make sense.

of friendster and friends

hats off to friendster.thanks to friendster because i got to know the people on my list of friends.u get to know if ur friend is single,married,in a relationship,u get to know the other side of the person,the what-nots and the testimonial says it all.i just found out that someone has a gf.i know I shouldn’t be affected because in the first place,we’re not doing anything wrong.but I don’t like the idea that he’s texting me when in fact he has a gf.of course i wouldn't feel good if i were on the gf's shoes.it’s about principles.char!i don’t wanna be a supporting actress or the villainess to someone else’s love affair. It doesn’t fit me. I deserve to have my own stage and I’m fit to be the protagonist. my head is perfectly designed for the tiara to fit.'nuff said.

my will be done.how would u feel if someone requires u to inform her what u do in ur life?it's not fair,right?all my life i make my own rules and i go where my feet leads me.i'm no longer a kid and i don't even ask permission from my mom if i need to go somewhere.what i do is inform her that i'm going to timbuktu or just tell her that i'm going somewhere.she doesn't even ask me the exact details.i don't wait for her to say no as long as i've informed her.i know she wouldn't say no because i believe she trusts me enough.but i don't like the idea that i need to tell someone re my whereabouts.hell no!i'm 23 and and i have the sole freedom to control my life.i don't need to tell anyone that i'll be flying to the moon and the what-nots.i've lived my life with my own rules.i value my individuality and i'm the captain of my ship.

where art thou?..a hundred text msgs,a # of missed calls,a handful of wrongsent msgs just to know u exist but u nvr answered.have u left me my friend?i may be a fool for thinking that you've betrayed me.i'm hoping that my heart and mind is wrong.i hope this time my intuition would fail me.i dunno why i'm feeling this way but i feel so uneasy and i'm trying to fight off this strong feeling.i'm afraid to let this feeling rule me.the last time we spoke,i sensed something.it seems like you were trying to imply something without having to say it.there was a hidden meaning in your smile and a truth waiting to be unveiled.it's like a code that i needed to decipher.hope you'll soon drop a line or two.

tick-tock-tick-tock

i'm sitting here in my station and sooo bored.i'm seated next to rob and mike but both of them logged out early because they went on halfday(lucky people).there are agents who were allowed to go on halfday because there's just a lil number of calls coming in.there's no queue because americans celebrated thanksgiving day.it's holiday in the US but we don't get doublepay for today(unfair!).so,i'm left here alone and i'm seated away from the other agents and away from my team mates.i dunno what to do.i've surfed the net,read blogs,sent emails and i got tired jumping from one site to another.i'm just waiting for the clock to strike 4:01 and i'm outta here.well, it's the end of the week and i love restdays.next stop will be ayala.nadina gave me her extra movie ticket.yipee!!i can watch a movie for free. i also have a different ticket for tomorrow's play also in ayala.hope i'll have a great weekend.that's all for now.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore. (i still believe in it.) In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?