de-stress

i logged out at 4pm today and hooked up with rona .we went to a place in colon,ate out and had our fave garlic chicken and the walang-kamatayan-na-pancit(hehe),laughed and talked.it was good we did it because we were so stressed from work with all the pressure and the queue.i'm glad we didn't talk about work(puh-leeeease!!!).it was time well spent and we somehow forgot about the winterstorm.thanx ronz!

new sched

farewell dinner at la maison

starting on tuesday,i'll have a 7am-4pm shift with a sunday-monday restday.well,a few people rejoiced when they found out that their shift is at 7am-4pm which i don't like.

• i hate waking up sooo early in the morning and that is at 5am...ugh!!!
• for someone like me who finds happiness sleeping at 12am or 1am,it's really a pain in the @$$.
• the water is soooo cold the moment it touches ur skin(we don't have a heater)
• it will change my eating habits
• skype sched will change
• it's hard to file for leave
• there's one more reason i can't disclose here which comprises 75% of why i don't like this sched.

so why did i choose the sched?as if i had a choice!!!i got priority #5 which some people envied but the new sched they rolled out doesn't have my fave sched which is 11am-8pm with a sunday-monday restday.there are 2 scheds for the 8am-5pm but there's no sunday restday,one sched at 1pm-10pm which i'm confident i could get because of my priority # but the queue will drain and kill me because everyone's gonna be out at 4pm and 5pm.so,i have to choose the 7am-4pm shift.i'll miss my 11am-8pm shift.i've been on this shift for more than a year and i love it.

• i can wake up at 8am
• i can sleep at 1am or before 2am
• i have time to watch tv or dvd
• can easily file for leave
• skype,skype,skype before i go to work
• i can go home anytime because it's like i own the leave allocations
  
  

i could only wish they included the 11am-8pm shift but i have to accept my new sched.as what i said during my final interview here,"i'm flexible and can work anytime".whew!

B is for...

...Bantayan Island
...bee-yu-tee-fool

...bikini

...blue and crystal clear water

...beach



we went to the island last saturday and i sooo enjoyed the trip.i love it!we stayed there for a night and i super love the place.it's really sulit.it was a weekend full of seafoods and it's yummy.plus it's cheap.i'm very happy that we spent our weekend there to unwind.i can't wait to go back there.





for those who wanna go there,here's the tip:

*from cebu city,we took the 7am bus(ceres liner with a/c for Php85.00) going to hagnaya.the bus will stop at the port.

*then a ferry will take you to the island.the fastcraft will take 30mins for P168.00.then the regular ferry will take 1 hr and 15mins for P134.00.

*we stayed at the sta. fe beach club which is 5mins away from the port and the resort provided a van*we got the non a/c room which is good for 5 pax for P1200.00.

*the food is affordable.for one meal(4persons),we spent around P550.00 to P700.00*we went to ogtong cave with free entrance at the resort since we stayed at the sta fe beach club.*if you love island hopping,u can rent a boat for P800.00 and it will take u to the virgin island.don't rent the boat at the resort because they charge P1800.00 for 2 persons.just outside the gate of the resort,there are those who offer cheaper rate for the boat,motorbike or mountain bike.

*going to the virgin island is a must-do.you'll love it there.when u get to the island,u can have lunch there because they offer cheaper seafoods and they'll offer to cook for you.

scoop:

super PDA....hehe


summer's here...let's have fun under the sun!!!

Way Back Into Love

i was watching this alone and i love it.it could have been a lot better had i watched it with rej.it's a nice movie for a date.it's just light and funny.the song "way back into love" keeps on playing and playing on my mind.LSS.*kilig*kilig*i can't help but hum,hum and then sing.i've been singing it before i went to sleep and right after i woke up.if u haven't seen the movie,i guess u won't be that kilig like me.

here's the lyrics:

I've been living with a shadow overhead

I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed

I've been lonely for so long

Trapped in the past,

I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away

Just in case I ever need em again someday

I've been setting aside time

To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love

I can't make it through without a way back into love

Oh oh ohI've been watching but the stars refuse to shine

I've been searching but I just don't see the signs

I know that it's out there

There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking fro someone to shed some light

Not just somebody just to get me through the night

I could use some direction

And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love

I can't make it through without a way back into love

And if I open my heart again

I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real

Or if anybody feels the way I feel

I need inspiration

Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love

I can't make it through without a way back into love

And if I open my heart to you

I'm hoping you'll show me what to do

And I you help me to start again

You know that I'll be there for you in the end

...

"when i was a child i loved soaring the air on a swing & believing i could touch the sky. i haven't forgotten the thrill of those moments.& i experience anew the same kind of wonder & excitement everytime you hold my hand."

--kelly hake

i got this last love day

*happy*happier*happiest*
thank you honey!thanx for the effort.i really didn't expect it.

i was super surprised. i sooo love it.

make love.not war.

tomorrow is valentine's day and it's my first vday with a bf but since bf is not here then it's just another ordinary day for me.no fancy dinner date.uhm...if ul consider "chat" as a form of date then maybe i have one.hehe...vday has always been spent having dinner with my friends and that will continue this year.for me,vday is everyday for someone who is inlove.love can't be summarized in just one day.i guess it's the businessmen who makes it overrated.hello to overbooked hotels,price of the flowers will be doubled,traffic and full restos.omg!me and my friends haven't made reservations yet.this is more than just a kickback!

i hate to think what to wear tomorrow because people will give meaning to the color of your shirt.

green: single

yellow: maybe.maybe not.

blue: searching

red: i'm taken

it's red for me because i'm taken but i just hate to wear red on vday.baduuuuy!

whatever.

happy valentine's day!

spread love.

message deleted

someone SMSed me:

"to tell u honestly,u luk uglier..hey,i'm teling d truth.dnt be mad at me.u luk prety b4"

i smell bitterness.i'm not mad just because of what he texted.i don't believe him.i only believe the people who i love.he's the same person who texted me the night before his wedding that he's getting married.the same person who told me that i should get a bf because i was stone-hearted.the same person who told me he'll quit in the seminary just for me,the same person who texts me once in a while and reminds me that he's already married.i'd like to assume he still wishes i'm his wife now.so pathetic.

i only have this to say:

"move on.i'm very happy with my life.you were never a part of my happiness."

message deleted.

happy birthday blog!!!

i created an acct on blogger in november '04 so that i could leave comments on my friend's blogs and to bloghop or blogleap.in feb '05,i started to post something and that was two years ago.funny how time flies so fast.for two years in blog-o-sphere,i can't count how many blogs i visited. i have my own list of blogs i visit everyday and it never fails to amaze me because i feel like i've known that person so much even if i haven't met them yet.u get to follow what is happening with their lives everyday.i'm happy that blogville allows me to take a peek of their lives.

cheers to more years in blogville!!!

tag-sinkwenta ta

*bisaya espesyal

nakapiso ko karong adlawa ug kagahapon.talagsa ra gani ko maglabag sa batas,award na dayon uy.kagahapon nakapiso ko kay nagtransfer kuno ko ug tawag sa lain numero.tinuod nga gitransfer nako ang call pero dili kay para makaiwas sa tawag kun dili guba akong tool.guilty ko nga nagtransfer ko ug call pero wala ko nakonsensya.ang sunod nga award kaganina kay na-overbreak ko for ONE minute for 3consecutive days.hmmm...how about kanang uban nga super overbreak?wonder lang ko.timing lang gyud siguro kay ngano kanang uban diha todo-call out bisan walay gitawagan para lang di mu-take ug call,transfer2 ug call bisan dili dapat itransfer,ug grabe pud makabreak bisan overbreak na.ambot lang gayud.timing ayo kay gikapoy nako.gahapon pa gani mi naghisgot ni gem about ps plans.aguy na...enough,enough,enough!!!

haaay...basta,i am Php 2.00 richer.naa nasad ba kaha ko award ani ugma?

first post for 2007

the sun was shining brightly and was smiling at me this morning,enough to brighten my gloomy day.and then one of our neighbors greeted me with "tumaba ka"! haay!!!i know,i know,i know.i never complained that i was thin because i didn't look like those kids in somalia.yeah,i admit i gained weight now from 81pounds to 100pounds.owh,how's that?my old jeans are too small for me or i'm too big for my  old jeans.hehe...my friends/relatives said that i look better now that i gained weight but they told me to get rid of the baby fats.yes,all.i will get rid of that especially for that boracay trip.i didn't drink coke this week and i'm down to 3 meals a day(with/without rice) and no extra rice and will soon start the sit-ups thingie.enough of this.

 

i haven't posted here in a while and i miss it.i don't know but i can't find the urge to write.i have a lot of drafts in my acct.i'm just so lazy to post them  because of the internet problem and it's hard to upload pictures too.i just don't know why i suddenly have access to wi-fi at home.thanx neighbor.hehe...

 

it's my lastday for the week and will have my restday tomorrow and sunday.thank God!!!i don't have to wake up early to avoid the traffic and rerouting because of the ASEAN summit.i'm in metropolitan cebu and i don't know what is going on with the summit.will catch the update on tv

tonight.

 

***will post pix soon

2006 survey

i know this survey is too late but i just wanna post it.

1. What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before?
uhm...wore a two-piece which shocked people.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Nope.u-huh!!!lose weight and save.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
tintin.we're not close but she's the mother of my niece.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
nope.

5. What countries did you visit?
none this year.

6. What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?
self discipline

7. What date from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
july 2006.reggie was here.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
having a bf

9. What was your biggest failure?
no savings.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
yeah.that freakin viral infection thingie.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
my new jeans because my old jeans doesn't fit me anymore.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
mine and reggie

13. Whose behaviour appalled you ?
the loser AMAVILLA DANGCULOS

14. Where did most of your money go?
boat tickets,load and food

15.What did you get really, really, really excited about?
my relationship with reggie,laptop and christmas 2006

16. What song will always remind you of 2006?
beautiful soul

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

i. happier or sadder? happier (definitely!)
ii. thinner or fatter? fatter. everyone can attest to this.
iii. richer or poorer? richer, i think! hehe!

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
spent more time with reggie when he was here.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
worked when reggie was here

20. How did u welcome the NEw YEar?
i was at home in talisayan with my family,tie ning and tie lang.

22. Did you fall in love in 2006?
it's a big YES!(unexpectedly)

23. How many one-night stands?
none.

24. What was your favourite TV program?
i am deprived from watching TV.hehe...uhm...i seldom watch it due to my sched.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
it's not really hate but i just don't like her.

26. What was the best book you read?
paulo coelho books

27. Who did you miss?
bf.family and lance.friends.

28. What did you want and get?
a bf.laptop.my approved leave for xmas.

29. What did you want and not get?
sony ericsson k800i

30. Favorite film of this year?
click

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
i went home to talisayan and had dinner with my family.nothing spectacular happened.no fireworks.i was 24.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
more leave allocations

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006?
skinny jeans,peep-toe,aviator shades and bangs.

34. What kept you sane?
movies.skype.chocolate.text.email.pictures.slippers.shades.superferry ticket.beach.white sand.fast internet connection.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
a lot.

36. WHo is your real-person crush?
reginald go.my crush since high school.hahaha..(pangka!)way magpalag!

37. What political issue stirred you the most?
asean summit because of the super traffic and rerouting.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
my beyshiees...

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006.
1. think 10times before u react
2. love is not all about feelings(i knew this even before pa but it has been proven in 2006)
3. patience.everything falls into the right places when u wait.

simbang gabi is here

simbang gabi has just started and i missed how it's like waking up around 3am and preparing for the dawn mass.this is my second year of missing simbang gabi because it's freaky going out early in the morning in a foreign place.i used to attend simbang gabi before i moved here in cebu and i've always completed the nine days.i've always been excited about simbang because i get to wear my cute hoodies(hehe),christmas mornings are different and most of all i love it when i get to complete the nine days because i can make a wish.i'm hoping i'd get to complete 9mornings next year.


approved

i'm very,very,very happy because i could go home and spend christmas at home.even before my leave was approved,i already bought tickets just to make sure.my leave has been approved and i'll be home from 21dec to 31dec.i'm just waiting for my leave on 2jan-6jan to be approved so that i could stay there longer.

wooohoo!!!merry christmas everyone!!!

panic mode

it's 16days before christmas and i still have a lot of things to do before i go home.i haven't bought gifts yet.i haven't sent out my christmas cards yet.i haven't decided what to wear to our xmas party yet.i still have to buy my oneway tkt even if my leave has not been approved yet.i'm really bussssy this past few days.

a dream is a wish ur heart makes

time flies really fast.a year ago,i was just one of the random kids hopefully waiting for my prince to come and sweep me off my feet.for every fallen eyelash,for every sneeze,for every candle that is lit,for every new church i've been to,for every new bridge i've crossed, everytime i've said the exact words at the same time someone says it,even with the solitaire game(hahaha), and everytime i blow the candle on my cake,i always include my future partner in my wishes.it happens when ur single and a hopeless romantic(hehe).u would be clouded with so many thoughts whether who that person is.it makes u wonder in so many ways whether u've met him already,a neighbor,a friend,an acquiantance,a college friend,a  chatmate or textmate,a childhood sweetheart,someone u haven't met yet,ur brother's friend/classmate,the son of your parent's friends,ur relative's officemates, someone from the other side of the world,a friend of a friend,the person u sit next to in the bus/boat etc...in my case,i really didn't think i'd end up with reggie until the day i dreamt of him.i dreamt that they went back here and found out that he likes me.that's it.that remained a dream to me and has to be proven because there was no basis for it.but i didn't really put too much effort when it crossed my mind.i don't wanna entertain the thought because i believed i was never his type.voila!!!love really finds its way.it's no longer a dream because i'm living with it.they said a dream is a wish ur heart makes.ahem...ahem...ahem...how come?when i really never thought he'd like me.or maybe i was just in denial that i silently admired him from afar.haha...ahem....well,oh,well...i have him now and that's all that matters.

yey!!!

i'm going home tonight.*excited* too bad there's no internet connection there.i still don't know when i'm coming back because my leave on 4nov is still pending.whatever!i'll just buy ticket for 3nov to avoid the rush.all my bags are packed,i'm ready to go.i only have 4hours left at work.woohoo!!!

i am sad

because of this:

 

Reese Witherspoon & Ryan Phillippe Split

i love them both.i sounded sooo affected when i told my friends about it.hehe.*sigh*sigh*sigh*

uuuy...interesting.

la lang...i just find it interesting that there are people from other places who checks my blog.hmmm.....

moving up

first it was mommy joyce then came daddy henry as trainers then robert followed as a sup,dax as a CSA,pete as a sup,anna as a sup,gemini as a team manager,bless as a sup,michelle as FD and now nadina as a sup...hmmmm....more and more people are moving up.the next thing i'll know,my whole team will be promoted.gosh!i came to think that i have two choices now,to move up or to resign(which i'm thinking of doing). and if i'll stay,i'll move to a diff department..haaay...it's just too early to tell.i'd better not spill the beans.

kapoy pa work

it was my first day of work from a 10-day break.it was supposed to be a 4-day leave only but i got sick.right after my short vaycay,i had fever the next day.on the third day,it felt like my bones are too brittle to move and it felt like my body is about to break and then coldness wrapped my tiny body.i was chilling that night right after i dropped off aden at the port.so i decided to see the doc the next day with the nonstop prodding of my bf that i should go and see the doctor.whew!!!i was still groggy in the morning so i slept and woke up around 5pm.i was about to get up and prepare to go the hospital when i saw my sis's status on YM as online.i called her on YM because i hated to chat that time,my fingers were freaking lazy to touch the keyboard.i went to chonghua hospital alone and off to the ER.i had my own lil bed then was told to lie down for the check-up.they started to ask me if i smoke or drink or if i'm expecting.hahaha...i admit i gained a lil weight from 37.5kls to 41.5kls but i'm not freaking pregnant.that would be another case of immaculate conception slash the second coming of Christ but i don't think i'd be chosen to be the mother.hahaha...back to where i left off...so there,it was not easy because i need to move around the building to pay the bill and go to the lab.even if i felt too frail to do those things and would prefer to just stay in the ER,i had to because i went there alone.i didn't have someone with me.i thought it would just be a lil check-up but the doctor required CBC and urinalysis.hmmm....

i waited for the result for 2hours and since there's no network connection inside the ER,i decided to go out to text people.laagan gayud bisan nasakit.i had wished i had my cam with me so i could still take pix.hehe...while waiting at the lobby,my friend krishna came then tie ning and sister bing were also there.(thank you,thank you for being there!!!)thank God everything went well.the doctor said it's an upper respiratory tract infection slash viral infection.kung sa binisaya pa,ubo-sipon-hilanat.so,there i had fever for 7days and needed to stay home and rest.thank God for the internet connection because it saved me from boredom.

a short vacay

guess asa mi niadto..

follow us...

tantananan......

it was perfect!it was indeed an alegre experience.we enjoyed our stay at alegre beach resort in sogod,northern part of cebu.it's a two-hour travel from the city.i'll let the pictures do the talking.(click on the image for a larger view)

take a look:

our room:


the welcome drinks:


the twin slippers:


the sunset cruise:


yum..yum...


view from our room:



etcetera:

might and maybe

the thought of resigning has been playing on my mind.the thought surprised me.it just crossed my mind and might welcome the idea..in january maybe.(ooops....before u ask me that,i would say i'm not going anywhere). mom also texted me to quit and find another job because she saw the tv patrol feature about call centers. i've been in this industry for almost two years now.that's overstaying because the normal lenght of stay in a call center is 6months.i guess it's time to move on.i need a break.hmmm... maybe the four day break will give me time to think things over and reevaluate myself.i know there are still areas i need to improve on.

 

have a happy weekend everyone!!!

they said i gained weight

Hmmmp…

it pays to wait

"hui nganong wa man kay uyab"

"istrikta man gud ka"

"standards,standards..wa nay ayo"

i've been told about these things many times and these are just few of the many statements.years ago,i have a long list of the things that i'm looking for in a man.i've been telling myself i can't have those qualities in just one person.that would be impossible and would require years of praying,petitions,novenas, a number of masses and offerings.haha...it came to a point when i had to let go of that checklist.i'm left with three of the most important qualities.first is,the guy should become my friend.because if he is,i would feel comfortable and there would be no pretensions. second,a family-man.i wanted him to be family-oriented because i am too.third,my family should like him because i don't wanna choose between my family and him.lil did i know that just when i've let go of all the other qualities,God is working on my relationship.i would say i've been praying for that person.my friend nadina used to joke about my 20pesos every sunday.whenever i leave home to hear mass,she would always tell me "nik,ang 20pesos para sa imong bana.dapat lang i-pray and halaran".i know it's funny but prayer works wonders.i'm not saying he's worth 20pesos but there's nothing impossible with prayers.He prepared someone for me who i believe has met all the qualities.i dunno but i've been looking at it in all angles and i believe it's him. God has been so great.God gave me someone beyond my expectation.he's more than what i asked for.i know it pays to wait.

hmmm..

years ago, i found myself sitting infront of my sister while she relates how her bf that time went all the way from manila to baguio just to woo her. it felt like she's part of a koreanovela. my eyes twinkled seeing her so kilig.i was at awe and felt hopeless thinking no one's gonna do that for me.lo and behold!reggie made it real for me.i was on cloud 9 when reggie told me he's coming to cebu.oh boy!he just made my day when he sent me a copy of his e-tkt.my officemates nadina and dax kept on singing "i will cross the ocean for you" right after i told them.hahaha...*kilig*kilig*i didn't expect he would do that.i know some pips wondered why he went all the way here and didn't go directly to our hometown.some asked why he has to go to cebu knowing that i'm also sched to go home for our town fiesta.i know many were surprised to see us together and wondered if it's really us.i know many raised their eyebrows and eager to find the answer.YES,it's US.

the countdown begins

While we were having bfast earlier,Debbie was saying that it’s four months to go and it’s December. She’s right it’s September 1,2006 today. then I said “oh my God!it’s BER,pasko na!pero malamig ang pasko.” our other housemate jaja having heard what I said reacted, “haha…as if wala ka naanad(as if ur not used to it).” she was right but it’s different now.*sob* hehe…hmmm…I can hear the bells ringing,the simbang gabi,gift-giving,food,caroling,xmas tree,parties and a lot more. christmas would always be my fave time of the year. cheers to a merry xmas in four months!

how it started

i've been wanting to write something about me and my bf but everytime i'm online and ready to pour out my emotions,i get disoriented.i can't even start a single sentence.i dunno how to start or what to say first.this has been sitting on my mailbox and i keep on editing the whole thing.whatever...

he's 24 and i'm 24.aquarius vs. taurus.i've known reggie since we were kids but we're not close.uhm...family friends.everyone knows everyone.our grandparents are neighbors.i was so lil then for me to remember how he was like when we were kids.i dunno if he was there when dad would tag me along to one of his saturday morning basketball games because our parents are basketball buddies.and i was always there with the other kids cheering for our dads. we're not classmates coz he went to school early.we were schoolmates in grade school but i only got to talk to him in high school.he was there eleven years ago during the isaiah play and the YFC too.just last month when i went home,we rummaged my old things and he found my diary.i immediately took it from him and found out that his name is always there in almost every page.haha...it's like we talked everyday.i remembered it so well during the first week of classes when we were under the shade of the talisay tree with titing(hs friend) and i was wearing a new dress and then they kept on teasing me and they started calling me "dalaga".he was always there during my runaway days.i remembered him inviting me on his bday but i didn't come.he's a basketball afficionado and was a member of my dad's bball team. i (with my sis)cheered for the basketball team just so we could join the team eating right after the game.haha.he stayed overnight and attended the wake of my granny.and was still there when dad passed away.i can still remember him bringing coffee and other stuffs.i remember the dimple,the megawatt smile and mr. chinito.the mr.nice guy in high school. he's someone i did't expect to like me.he's one of the farthest people in my mind that i could think of to like me.(who am i anyway?)he's someone who is always in the background.the tease.the bearer.the friend.the mailbox or should i say the postman?the messenger or whatever you call it.and then come fourth year,i only get to see him during basketball games and a simple "hi and bye" would do.then he left.the world is too small for us not to remember each other.after 4years,we started sending msgs through friendster.then the long emails followed,chat and it progressed to phone marathons.that started it.june 14,2006 was the day.

the stalking continues

 

part of my routine is to check my statcounter and there's something interesting about it.someone's checking my site,i thought she's/he's just one of the bloghoppers who chanced upon my site.her/his location is PALAU.wow i said to myself because it's a nice place as featured on TV.they have nice beaches there and it's one of my dream destinations.anyway,she's/he's consistently checking my site.hmmm...i can't remember if i have friends who lives there.plus she/he checks it from my friendster blog.how come?hmmm again...but i didn't care finding out who she/he is.i really didn't have any idea who that person is until this afternoon.i went online during my lunch to check my mails and friendster too.hehe...lo and behold!just when i viewed those who updated their profiles and added photos,something caught my attention.it's the word PALAU...hmmm..now i know who she is.i can't believe it that everything has been laid out infront of my very own eyes.thank God she found her way here.i'm not guilty.i will not take it back whatever i've said in the past....

 

**wink*wink**

too much has been said

while Lebanon is being bombed 24/7,there's also a word war going on here.thank you to those who defended me and who left comments.thanx to reggie,brat,jane,aden,cath,pintas,anonymous/one of my fans,my friends,and to those who've read my post and chose not to comment.

i'm good when you're good but i can be ur worst nightmare if u want me to.i can only think of two things why A.D. did this to me.that would be jealousy and envy. i've known her since grade school not because she's a head-turner,not because she tops her class,not because she is sosyal,not because she belongs to the alta sociedad but because we live in the same place and go to the same school where everyone knows everyone.it's just a "hi and bye" if i see her.i know she had petty quarrels in high school but who am i to judge her.i heard she's maldita but i didn't care because she was never mean to me.i know she would always be there for her friends and would really fight for them like how friends would do.she is the Ex's bestfriend as i said and i know she felt bad for her.she no longer leaves comments here but i know that she's been checking my site.

an open letter:

am,
u can never dictate someone what to do especially if it involves feelings.u cannot ask him to love her because his heart belongs to someone else.he's 24 and he's in his right state of mind to make decisions.and i very well know reggie would not settle for the second best.men would always go for the best.i just don't know if ur fighting for ur friend this time.or maybe ur also fighting for yourself.i tell you to move over because u don't have a chance here.i don't need reggie for me to have a greener pasture.i'm sooo not using him for me to go to the US of A.maybe that's the reason why ur running after him.why did u have to go to canada?i can stay in the philippines,be happy and enjoy the greener pasture.i don't have to look somewhere else for a greener pasture.i can eat more than 3times a day and anytime i feel hungry.i can watch movie anytime without waiting for someone to pay for my ticket.i can go on a quick vacation,pay my bills,go online anytime and i don't need to ask load from anyone,shop, and have fun.i have my family,my friends,my relatives and i have reggie too.that for me is the greenest pasture.i don't need to be a millionaire to be happy.i'd rather be happy and poor.but in reality,i'm afraid to be poor.but i'm more afraid to be sad.who would even want to be poor?is that hard to understand?i just wanted to have a comfortable life.i just wanted a simple life.i'm not sosyalera.why should i?i won't sweat it out to be one.i don't know how u define sosyalera.if u'll just use two of your brain cells,u would understand what i'm trying to tell you.i never really brag about my life but you are going way overboard.i would not humble myself and say sorry to you for all the things that has been said here.why should i?u deserve it.losers would always be losers.being in canada will not make u a god.if i were in ur place(which i wouldn't wish to be in),i would make it up by being a good person.too bad,u weren't there when God gifted us with manners,beauty and brains.double time working young lady,let me tell you that no matter how u work ur ass off in canada,u cannot buy beauty and good manners.it's something that should come from within.being beautiful is not really being pretty.if u have a good heart,you'll learn that happiness does not depend on greener pastures.you cannot take my tiara away from me.get a life!

***i dunno what's next after this.i just wanna put an end to what she started.too much has been said.

puh-leeeaaassse...

tsk...tsk...

*where do u wanna go now?

beach.bring my pink beach bag with my slippers,a fashion magazine, two-piece,cover-ups,shades,digicam,sunblock and other travel essentials.i wanna spread my sarong on the beachfront and enjoy the beautiful view.i needed to unwind.i just wanna feel the sand on my feet and enjoy the sun and the water.i've been checking the web for nice beaches.

spa.and a nice massage will do.

camp.i think it will be fun.and it has to be near a lake.

roadtrip.i wanna go to davao coz i've never been there.

*ultimate summer destination?

amanpulo resort.'nuff said.

*weekdays are spent for?

talk to reggie for hours through skype.going online is one of the things that makes me sane.hear mass on sunday.watch movie after mass.eat lechon.laundry.go to sto.niño on monday.another movie.dinner with friends.grocery.go to the mall.team outing.or a quick trip to dalaguet.my RD is on sun-mon.

*watch TV?

yes and no.the last time i watched tv was last monday.i had nothing to do that time because i promised reggie i'd wake him up at 1am.i enjoyed watching "america's top model" on studio 23 and i kept on saying "wow!there are a lot of new commercials" when in fact it's old.that is because i don't watch tv anymore.i know i've missed so many shows.i even got surprised about how bad the war in lebanon went.i never expected it's that serious.when i heard mass last month,there was this prayer for peace thingie and that's when i found out...haha... don't even say it.i know.thank God...i could still get updates online.i'm in-the-know now.


*what's the sexiest thing you've worn?

two-piece.

*do u love salt?

hmmm...why not sugar?hehe...yeah...salt for almost all types of fruits even ripe ones.

*what's one of the things that u had to let go?

the mosquito net.anyone close to me can attest to this.i can't sleep without it.it's more of a comfort zone.but sometimes we need to leave our comfort zones.i've had many tries before i finally got over it.i once placed it in a big plastic bag and put it on top of the cabinets.but i ended up waking up in the middle of the night,climb up and sleep with it on my feet.when i went to school in CDO,i had to cut a portion of it because it would be too bulky if i bring the whole thing. lil by lil,i easily got over it.i'm mosquito net-free now.hehe...

*movie u wanna watch this weekend:

correction,movies.click,just my luck and my super EX-girlfriend.

i'm tagging everyone...

go to this site :

http://www.freestuffhotdeals.com/hacker/1.html

this game is fun...it brings out "the robert langdon" in you.

have fun!!!i find it hard but it feels great after taking it.whew!

you'll get this msg once ur done:

CONGRATULATIONS!

GREAT JOB!!

doncha wish...

gotcha...

right after i published my post yesterday,i searched the web to check who anonymous is.
the mysterious person intrigued me with her comments:

special thanks to my friend cath for giving me a clue.*clap*clap*i have a statcounter on my blog that can trace the IP address.and anonymous accessed my blog from my friendster blog.she accessed my blog the same time the comment was posted on my site...it's exciting to find out who the culprit is.i dont want anyone to mess up with me.she may think i'm a neophyte in the cyberspace but definitely NOT.i kick ass in cyberspace.hehe...

screenshot from my statcounter:



screenshot from friendster:

i am 99% percent it's the same person.i know her since grade school.she happens to be my bf's classmate and the EX's best friend.'nuff said...

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED

to whom it may concern

I recently got a comment on my prev post from anonymous.i tried to ignore it but people are asking me.my friend cath sent me a msg asking me who anonymous is.and she stated that it's kinda scary.my sister also said the same thing.i really don't know who he/she is.i have a strong feeling that he/she knows me so well.i got the comment right after i went home in time for our fiesta and the whole town knew that i was with my bf.a lot of people got surprised even my friends and his circle of friends too.  there was no objection from my family and his family.so,maybe anonymous saw us there and checked my friendster acct because we recently uploaded pictures there.and since i have a link to my blog,maybe he/she found his/her way here.he maybe one of those guys who was on my busted list.doncha wish ur gf was hot like me?hahaha...or could be his EX.with all confidence,i would say that i will never ever be insecure with her as my rival.plus he is now mine.so,move over.or maybe a jealous friend of his ex who thinks i don't deserve him. well,i've met the whole clan not that i requested him to do that but they all wanted to meet me and he's proud of me.bleeh... i really don't have anything againts u guys.i'm just kinda intrigued because it looks like ur threatening me.it's too obvious that u just found ur way here because if u are a constant reader here,u wouldn't be browsing through my old posts anymore.hmmm....i share the same thoughts with some people who happened to read my blog.so,maybe i'm right.

 

owh...just remember that this is the world wide web and everything can be traced.so,i'll gotcha one of these days.i'll be kicking ass sooner than u expected.

 

my heart screams "help!"

it's a long story to start with but i'm nervous more than excited.tomorrow is the big day.i'm going to pick up an old friend at the pier.i haven't seen him in 6 years.i dunno what to do,what to say and how  to react.he's here just to visit me and he's also going home with me tomorrow night.you may think it's a lil weird because he arrives here sunday morning and he leaves sunday night which gives him less than 24hours to stay here.he purposely did that.he just wanted to see me.but i'm really very nervous.how i wish i could move it to a different day but this is it.every minute brings me closer to him.help!

walang kwentang post

 

back pain,headache,dysmenorrhea... i'm really not feeling ok lately.i dunno.maybe i just chose not to be ok.i'm not even excited about going home.it's like wala lang.i'm on leave from 9july-18july.it's a long vacation.i used to be sooo ready whenever i plan to go home.there goes the day1 to day10 list,counting the remaining nights,and planning my itinerary.but this is so much different.i dunno why.there are days when i just wanted to cry for no reasons at all and then emptiness would fill in.am i watching too much movies that i sometimes get carried away?hahay...i only have two working days left and i'll be leaving on sunday.

blahbity-blahs

i've been to cebudoc earlier and had my check-up.the area below my underarm(just above my waistline) is acting crazy.it hurts like hell.and as paranoid as i am, i have a lot of weird thoughts.it came to a point when i've thought of dying thinking the pain would lead into something serious.i realized i'm not ready to die yet.i just don't wanna die early.i don't think i've done enough good deeds.hehe...thank God the doctor said there's nothing to worry about and it's just muscle pain.the med?watch superman.i'm just kidding.

im in love with...

superman.i love the movie.it's cool.christopher reeves is christopher reeves and i love him too but having brandon routh as the new man of steel is a different story.he is hawt.i almost fell off my seat the moment Clark turned into Superman.let's just say i'm lois and my clark remains to be nothin but a dream.hehe... u should watch it.kevin spacey rocked as lex luthor.but guess what?who would freakin' cry over that movie?i just did.damn it...i cried for reasons i don't know.

the world needs a superman.

blah-blah...

i know when i don't feel good because i crave for food.it's something that would make me feel good.maybe i'm just not ok.i dunno why it's happening to me.it's weird.

all about me

1. Sent you a text message:
-- my HS classmate gaylord
2. Saw you cry:
-- i can't remember
3. Went to the movies with you?
-- a friend
4. You went to the mall with?
-- nesly
5. You went to dinner with?
-- officemates
7. Said 'I love you' to you and really meant it?
-- RG
8. Broke your heart?
-- uhm...
9. Made you laugh?
-- my team mate barry
10.Talked on the phone?
-- paul gibbons

W O U L D Y O U R A T H E R?
1. Pierce your nose or tongue?
-- none of the above
2. Be serious or be funny?
-- both

3. Drink whole or skim milk?
-- not milk please.coke nalang..
4. Die in a fire or drown?
--none of the above
5. Spend time with your parents or worst
enemies?
--parents

D O Y O U P R E F E R. .
1. Gray or black?

-- black
2. Color or Black and white photos?
-- B/W
3. Lust or love?
-- Looove actually
4. Sunrise or sunset?
-- sunset
5. M&Ms or Skittles?
-- M&Ms
6.Staying up late or waking up early?
--staying up

A N S W E R T R U T H F U L L Y !!
1.Do you like anyone?
-- yezzz...
2. Do they know it?
-- no

D O Y O U P R E F E R. .
1. Sun or moon?
-- moon

2. Winter or Fall?
-- fall
3. Left or right?
-- right
4. 10 acquaintances or having two best
friends?
--two best friends
5. Sunny or rainy?
-- sunny
6. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?
-- chocolate ice cream

A B O U T Y O U
1. What time is it?
-- 424pm
2. Name?
-- tiffany may
3. Nickname(s):
-- nikki
4. What is your birth date?
-- may 2,1982
5. What do you want? coke or pepsi?

-- coke
6. Where do you want to live?
-- philippines
7. How many kids do you want?
-- 4 or 5
8. You want to get married?
-- yup.i don't wanna grow old alone.

U N I Q U E !

1. Can you roll your tongue?
--yup
2 . Can you raise one eyebrow?
-- yup
3. Can you cross your eyes?
-- yup

R A N D O M
1. Which shoe goes on first?
-- right
2. Ever thrown one at someone?
-- nope

OTHER
1. Do you twirl your spaghetti?
-- yes
2.Have you ever eaten spam?
-- yes
3. Favourite ice cream:
-- ube/rocky road
4. How many kinds of cereal are in your
cabinet?
-- none.


I N T H E L A S T M O N T H , HA V E Y O U ?
1. had a b/f or g/f
-- nope

2. Bought something:
-- toiletries..does that count?
3. Sang:
-- never mind
4. Been kissed:
-- nope
5. Been hugged:
--yup
6. Felt stupid:
--yes
7. Missed someone:
--yes
8. Danced crazy:
-- nuh...

9. Gotten your hair cut:
-- i'm planning to next week.

10. Cried:
-- yeah...damn movie.

i will haunt you

i hate it if someone would tell me "i will kill myself".don't u just hate it when people tell you this?

i would really hate you for the rest of my life.one time when someone told me that,i  almost  got into a vehicular accident.good thing it didn't happen or else i will haunt that person.i may not be the reason why he wanted to die but it somehow attracts bad energy.hmmp...

i've been tagged by my cousin kiting

1. What time did you get up this morning?
-- 830AM.
2. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
-- tokyo drift
3. What is your favorite TV show?
-- i don't watch tv anymore(read:no tv)
4. What did you have for breakfast?
-- sandwich
5. What is your middle name?
-- querol
6. What is your favorite cuisine?
-- filipino, italian, american ,japanese
7. Your favorite Potato chip?
-- pringles(cheese)
8. What is your favorite CD at the moment?
--none.
9. What kind of car do you drive?
-- this question doesn't apply to me.
10. Favorite sandwich?
-- bacon and egg
11. What characteristic do you despise?
-- ??
12. Favorite item of clothing?
--i call it my cotton rag shirts.haha..
13. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go?
-- paris or spain
14. What color is your bathroom?
-- blue
15. Favorite brand of clothing?
-- limited too.it fits me well.
16. Where would you want to retire?
--philippines
17. Where were you born?
-- talisayan,misamis oriental
18. Favorite sport to watch? -
- basketball/soccer
19. Who do you least expect to send this back?
-- aden
20. Person you expect to send it back first?
-- i dunno.i'm not sending this.
21. What laundry detergent do you use?
-- tide
22. Coke or Pepsi?
-- Coke
23. Are you a morning person or night owl?
-- i thought i'm a night owl before but when i was on GY shift,i had second thoughts.
24. Do you have any pets?
-- i hate it.
25. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share with everyone?
-- yup but i'll share it to the people close to me.
26. What did you want to be when you were little?
-- a nun or lawyer
27. Favorite candy bar?
-- ferrero rocher/choc with almonds/cadbury/crunch
8. What is your best childhood memory?
-- talisayan+calamcam+flores de mayo+cousins+holyweek(sugat)+patintero+sinehan ni edgardo+mangga ni miguel+ purok2
29. What are the different jobs you have had in your life?
-- this is my first job.
30. What color underwear are you wearing?
-- pink
31. Nicknames?
-- check my post on this here.
32.Piercing?
-- two
33. Eye color?
-- dark brown
34. Ever been to Africa?
-- nope
35. Ever been toilet papering?
-- what?
36. Loved someone so much it made you cry?
-- hmmm...
37. Been in a car accident?
-- nope.simbako.
38. Croutons or bacon bits?
-- bacon bits
39. Favorite day of the week?
-- monday(movie time)
40. Favorite restaurant?
-- casa verde
41. Favorite flower?
-- tulips
43. Disney or Warner brothers?
-- disney
44. Favorite fast food restaurant?
--kfc
45. What color is your bedroom carpet?
-- no carpet.
46. How many times did you fail your driver's test?
-- i haven't taken any driving test
47. Besides this one, from whom did you get your last email from?
-- james bender.*wink*
48. What store would you choose to max out your credit card?
-- i saw a nice bikini in BTC and it's 5thou.
49. What do you do most often when you are bored?
-- sleep, eat,surf the net,watch movies
50. Bedtime?
-- 1AM
51. Who are you most curious about their responses to this questionnaire?
-- kiting
52. What are you listening to right now?
-- none
53. What is your favorite color?
-- pink
54. Lake, Ocean or river?
-- river
55. How many tattoos do you have? -
- none.
56. Which came first, the chicken or the egg?
-- chicken i think.
57. How many people are you sending this email to?
-- none.i don't wanna send it that's why i'm posting this.

Cure to Boredom

1. Do u think you're ok?
--of course.i slept last night with a smile on my face and woke up today with a bigger smile.
2. Ever donated blood?
-- Nope.
3. Fav color(s)?
-- Pink,Orange,Green,chocolate brown
4. Accessories you usually wear?
-- Earrings
5. Last place you went to?
--the other building in the office to access yahoomail and friendster
6. Last person/s u went out with?
-- lunch with my officemates
7. Last person who called you?
-- regie.it was a two-hour long distance call.beat that.
8. Ever had a baby?
-- nope.
9. Last Movie you watch and with whom?
-- The fast and the furious:tokyo drift;with my friend kim.
10. Any piercings?
--Two
11. Act on stage before?
-- yup.
12. Struck by lightning before?
--nope
13. Ever wished you could turn back time? To when?
--High School.there's something i wanted to know and will only be answered if there's a time machine.haay...
14. What would you do if you woke up one day to find yourself to be with someone from
the opposite sex?
--i dunno.freak out maybe.
15. Last person you met for the first time?
-- none in particular
16. What will you be doing tomorrow?
-- Work. attend rob's birthday celeb at the beach
17. Ever thought of robbing a bank?
-- haha...it was a joke.
18. Do people like you?
--yes.
19. What was the last game you played on the computer?
--solitaire
20. The color of your mobile phone?
-- blue
21. Do you hate someone at the moment?
--i hate the It department because they blocked yahoo here.hehe..
21. Are you in a serious relationship right now?
--no.
22. What is on your mouse pad?
--USA map courtesy of expedia.
23. What's your favorite fruit?
-- MANGO
24. Do you wish to be a pilot someday?
-- i thought about it when i was a kid
25. What is the color of your pants right now?
--blue
26. Do you have a lot of admirers?
-- i dunno.
27. Is your hair long or short?
--long
28. Do you like going to the supermarket with yourparents?
~yes.

29. How long does it take for you to fix your hair?
~ 3minutes.

30. Where did you go last night?
~ HOME

31. What you had for breakfast this morning?
~chicken adobo for brunch

32. What did you have for dinner last night?
~ tapa

33. Do you sleep alone?
~ nope.

34. Who is beside you now?
~ my officemate ana

35. What is the last thing you touched before you went on the computer?
~ my jacket

36. Ever had a dream come true?
~yes.many times.

37. What's the worst thing you've done all week?
~ saying NO when what i really wanted to say is YES.

blast from the past

tongue-tied.speechless.floating maybe.

 

i dunno what else to say.i'm at a loss for words. *wink* 

 

lunch.movie.chitchat.perfect.

i met up with a guy friend today.it was nice seeing someone i could talk to and laugh with.when everyone else thought that there is something going on between us, i beg to disagree.it was just great spending time with someone who treats me so well yet never took advantage.our hearts are singing a different tune.i know his heart beats for someone else and i can hear it.he doesn't have to sing it because i know the rhythm.and mine?it's too early to tell.go figure...

second best

a month ago,a friend told me that if only he doesn't have a gf now,i would be his best choice because i'm this and that.haay,reasons...he is also the same person who once said that he will court me once i grw up.i overheard him discussing it with his friends 11years ago.but it turned out that it was his brother and his friend who courted me years after.and then just the other night,someone told me the same line that if only he doesn't have a gf now,i would be his best choice.*sigh* i don't know how to react.will i feel bad because i'm just the second best?or will i be flattered that even if he has a gf,he sees me as someone worthy to be his girl.and i dont' wanna hear the same line for the third time.i know i don't have to dwell on these things now because i don't want someone with a baggage.i want him to be as empty-handed as me so we could hold each other hand in hand.i always say i don't wanna be a supporting actress to someone else's love affair bacause i deserve to have my own stage. i know i will be someone's BEST.i may not know now who that person is but i'll just let time unfold what the future may bring.*wink*wink*

i am

i've accepted my defeat but i will not wallow in self-pity. ÜÜ

confessions

things you should know about me:

• when i yawn,i love to let the tears stream down my face.
• i don't know how to read the traffic lights.i can't identify which is for go,stop & whatever it is. we don't even have a car and i grew up commuting.
• i was once a mosquito-net addict.i can't sleep without it.i had it with me until i moved to manila and stayed with my sis.i threw the lil mosquito net i always had with me just for me to stop it.
• i always say I'd rather be poor and happy when in fact, I'm really scared of being poor. but i'm also scared of being sad.
• if only we're rich, i'd take up culinary arts
• i'm as soft as a cotton candy but can be hard as a bull
• i'm simple but kikay
• i sometimes cry over small things even if it's just a movie
• i have this "day-one-to-day-ten list" of what to wear whenever i go home
  my fave part of the lechon is the cheek part
• i love flats even if i'm petite
• i'm thin but i love to eat lechon
• i love tong-its
• i was once a couch potato before i moved here in cebu
• i haven't memorized even a single song(excluding i have two hands of course)
• my field is psychology but i love computers
• i don't wanna grow old alone
• i love movies..i'm a sucker for feel-good movies
• i love abs-cbn..hehe...
• i love kris aquino
• i don't like fruit salads
• i love the smell of smoke from a lighted match
• i love bagoong
• i own an obsolete phone
• i love pineapple juice
• i'm a coca-cola addict
• back home i don't like it when someone would eat first.i wanted everyone to eat together because i love chitchats(for short,tsismosa ko.haha).
• i've never eaten an oatmeal
• i love the beach but i'm not a good swimmer
• i can sing but i can't carry a tune
• i don't drink and smoke
• i'm afraid to have myself immersed in the water.i feel like i'm dying.
• i am phasmophobic
• n**b here
• i fear math
• i noticed that i love taking pictures of my feet and hands
  
  

i've gotta name names

almost everyone would ask me how come my nickname is nikki when my real name is tiffany may(for those who didn't know that's my real name).the name tiffany may was supposed to be for my older brother because they thought it's a baby girl.so it's not originally for me.it was already prepared three years before i was born.and then they call me nikki because my dad's relatives call him nik and so i was named after him.i remember one time when a classmate of mine called me at home and was looking for tiffany, the househelp told her tiffany doesn't live here.then the househelp told me "tiffany daw,wrong number".haha...
nikki is the official nickname but i still have a lot of nicknames.read on:

• my bro vinx calls me kin (bah-kin) or ba-ik
• sis jane calls me kai
• my bro jan calls me tipani
• my older bro warren calls me 'te
• my sis aden calls me gur or tag
• mom and manoy calls me ikin
• my aunts call me king (queen unta noh?)
• my close friends call me nikay
• jaeger calls me nikkiboy
• my cuz calls me te-ik
• they call me tikay
• kiting calls me ate G____
• my college friends call me steph(they are confused with tiffany and stephanie)
• others call me fan
• someone calls me ny
• they call me may
• someone calls me bianca babes
• someone calls me nikki-nikki
• two of my prev sups call me see-mee-neeh
• a friend calls me sai-min
• they call me tiffy
• and now dax calls me little boy
• krish calls me simone
• my cuz calls me nikko
• others call me niks or nix
• or they call me tiff

u sure this room is for me?this room was reserved under my name.

wrong spelling..WRONG! this is so out of the picture..this sooo not my name.